From this point on I have to say the journal is friends only ( Read more... )

So a situation came up the other day that while speaking with someone else, she gave off the impression she didn't like me. Now i barely know the chick and didnt say more than a few sentances to her but bad vibe. I asked if she had a problem.. I got told that pretty much she doesn't understand me. That i do cartwheels and giggle in a padded group ( Read more... )

This has been a really weird weekend for me. Started with going out and seeing ronnie and the kitten earlier saturday and spending the day with them to picking up angela and felipe and realizing a few seconds too late that the four of them..do not get along ( Read more... )

Slave!
You are 21% Dominant and 71% Submissive!

Hit me harder sir! You know what you like. Lick the boots and taste the leather. You enjoy a heavy hand over you, telling you what to do. You live to serve.. and love it. Maybe if your score is high enough.. you enjoy a little blood? Masochism is the only way to be!


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I'm tired but honestly can't sleep. I feel like I'm having submissive and masochistic withdrawals again and it sucks.

So i'm feeling really out of the loop and maybe its me. I'm wondering what i did to upset all these people and become "second rate". It starts like this. Kev and Shell and all them go to a party, see someone i obviously had a crush on..spend alot of time with him, did some play stuff and then today he mentions it like its not a big deal because of ( Read more... )

So i've decided that I would like to be important. For someone to decide that yes they do want to spend time with me and yes i am an important part of their life. I guess this is to say that i'm always coming second to everyone ( Read more... )

So i've decided I may trust about 3-4 people in reality. You know the easy to get along withs, Jeff, Shell, basic people. In the past 4 hours..three people have pissed me off.. So this is a rant, if your friend sensitive...dont read ( Read more... )

I want to play, I want someone to be there for me. I want to know what it's like to not be ignored, for someone to want me there and to feel like i belonged in some sort of group of clicky thingy that made me feel secure..

most of all, I dont want to feel like I do now.

im lost and confused, i want to jump into daddy's lap and most of all i want a hug.

needless to say ...stay away im emotional