oh my god, i don't know anything. i'll never know anything by the time i die even if i try to absorb everything right now. i can't even focus on one thing long enough before i want to start learning about something else. then it all just fades away and is a memory and not information. focus you damn bouncing memories and become information so that ( Read more... )

i'm scared of how grown up decisions are taking over my life, even my future life. what if all these years i've spent in college studying this particular thing and i just want to live in a dirty old house with friends who talk about dirty pointless things. become nothing, make nothing of myself. im still scared of everything, its my biggest flaw. ( Read more... )

i just realized how hateful i am. i am starting to be scared to be anything for fear or becoming something i don't like. i don't want to be pretentious. i dont want to be repetitive. i dont want to be normal. i dont want to be strange. i dont want to try too hard. i dont want to not try at all. i dont want to be a drunk. i dont want to be expected ( Read more... )

everybody's crazy so now im gunna be normal.

ive lost 11 pounds! yippeeee, only took 3 months.

there's just not enough of me to go around sometimes. i need 4 of me.

i always have to have a vice, something to fall back on. my secret things. i'm currently engaged in my healthiest form of vices, frozen yogurt. i eat it every night religiously and i go to bed feeling empty if i don't have it? like my life depends on frozen yogurt or something. but i know it's not really the frozen yogurt, it's something bigger ( Read more... )

took over two months, 20 yoga classes, over a hundred miles and no drinking but i finally lost 5 pounds. 15 more to go! my belly is finally going away yipeeeeeee

i don't care if you love anyone else, just as long as you love me the most. yeah i'm selfish, so what.

tonight I was feeling more alone than usual. I looked up at the moon and I started to cry. it's alone too but it's doing alright. I'll be fine too. I'm just glad I finally cried. then "Pink Moon" came on shuffle and I was happy for a moment. out of the thousands of songs, that song came on. some force made that happen, I decided to believe. this ( Read more... )