my head's going to explode.

sometimes i feel sad. mostly i feel empty. always i feel alone. i dont mean to whine. or complain. this is just how i feel. i feel like there is not one person that won't break my heart. so lately i don't find pleasure in human interaction because i find it all to be a facade. you're talkin yourself up to impress me or your talkin yourself down to ( Read more... )

new goal:
after i graduate. run across the u.s.

talking heads, dancing in undies, alone.

i want to ride a motorcycle. i want to use the word indicative in a sentence. i want to remember to bring reusable bags. i want to love something. i do love to jog actually. i can hear my breathing and look at little things and breath air that has gone beyond the clouds and traveled back to me. i want to change everything about me, not because i ( Read more... )

i love that my friends love me but i hate making plans ahead of time. i refuse to cancel on people and im fuckin booked up and all i really wanna do is organize and relax.

revelation: i work extremely hard to not work hard at things.

i've been striving my whole life to be the person that forgives. that pushes feelings aside so that they wont consume me. to just live in the moment and forget the past. but at what point should i stop forgiving. at what point do people start taking advantage of your kindness. well i know the answer to that one, it's instantly. something horrible ( Read more... )

No one is good, nothing is sacred. That's what I believe in.

i would like to dedicate this summer to finding out what matters to me. to find out if i have feelings. get into the core of my soul; presuming that's a real thing. i dont presume that but i'd like to. i'd like to think love is real too while im at it. but i think its just a feeling. like happiness. or sadness. maybe its both. or everything rolled ( Read more... )