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Bipolar relationship

Wow it's tough holding back the urge to crack open a beer. I haven't gone a day without drinking in over a year, and the longest time in about 3 years or more is about 3 weeks. I'm shaking right now and I can't stop. On my days off I drink until the night, when I then still continue to drink.. I need to sort stuff out now. At this moment dear ( Read more... )

I need to sort things out without being clouded by being in love with someone. Apparently doing dishes while someone's on the computer, then making them dinner and trying to let them have time to themselves is suffocating.. then watching a show so they have time to work on music and having them come in near the end only to have them complain about ( Read more... )

I always seem to get caught up in the middle of everyone else's bullshit

You get yourself into this mess, you drag yourself out of it. You have choices. Don't listen to your heart, it kills you, makes you sick. Logical thinking.. just take a look at what is going on. I used to think there was good in this world but now everything and everyone is making me ill. I do not trust anyone. Fucking backstabbers. Words. DO or ( Read more... )

Apparently I can't handle being alone and sober. I'm not used to it. I feel so happy my heart is going to burst.. This "happiness" makes me want to choke, it's awful.. I can't sleep to top it off. My heart feels like it's beating 100 times per second. I want to smile and burst into tears, and I just want to take a break from life.. just turn off.. ( Read more... )

I am so much happier now than I have been in years. I am excited about this sudden change in attitude, and of a new relationship. All you can do when you're stuck in a negative experience, is just do your best to turn it into a good one. It's funny how one can feel so upset over something.. like it's the end of the world.. and then be over it ( Read more... )

It's scary.. People can do or say anything they want. Become a person they're not. Lie. Cheat. All with a slight twist of words. I don't like to think about it.. Con artists come to mind, say ( Read more... )

You let it control your life, and then it chews you up. I'm stuck. Fucking help me.