I don't know why I hurt myself. I'm just so irritated and angry. All I want to do right now is just drink. Yep. I don't want to quit drinking, sorry. Fuck I can't even write anything, this is so pointless. I hate being forced to work. I hate all this control. I should start writing in a real journal again so I can actually SAY what is going on ( Read more... )

I need to build some social skills. Seriously.. Most of the tattoo artists I've talked to have really loud personalities.. Like they just state their opinions and aren't afraid to get close to people... I just don't know what to say around people like this.. I feel like if I do or say anything stupid, and the time comes where I ask for an ( Read more... )

I have no friends.. Seriously I don't, and I never have. I keep about 2 close friends and that's it, and that's the way it's always been. It's not like I don't want any friends, people just aren't drawn to me. I also find a lot of people to be horribly boring.. I also can't hang out in groups. Don't know why.. Often it's because I'm usually ignored ( Read more... )

Now, where do I start and what do I write about? Hmm.. Let's start with my liver. It's hurting me right now because I drink too much. Last night I went out AGAIN and drank way too much and got sick and passed out.. I don't even know what happened. I don't think my liver is enlarged again but it might be. I know something's wrong with it ( Read more... )

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Fuck it.. ahhh.. I'm so hungry right now but I have no food at my place until Friday (payday) when I will get the chance to get groceries after a long stressful day at work.. I need a drink. I do have booze here. Spent most of my money on it, going out every frickin night. When was the last night I was sober? I dunno!! God seriously I should have ( Read more... )

Why is drawing leopard print such a pain in the ass when it should be a pretty simple task? I have found my achilles tendon.

Why do I do this? I started drinking as soon as I got home. Now before I down this next glass I'm going to open the windows for air, take a couple deep breaths and try to cover it all up so I don't make anyone upset ( Read more... )

Here I am, Wednesday night. My room is a total disaster, I'm sobering up and waiting for Chris to get back from work so we can watch Star Trek. Unfortunately the sun didn't come out for me today as it did for everyone else on the days I had to work. I don't like my job. There's so much bullshit going on, I wouldn't even be surprised if someone ( Read more... )

Aw, reading your livejournal has just made me so proud of the person you've become now. I love you Chris and am glad you have changed for the better. You should be really proud. All those posts don't even sound like you ( Read more... )