I can't really sleep, I slept my day away.. well from when I came home from my game at least. I have been trying to figure out the day tara told me she loved me.. .. I remember the night.. perfectly.. but I don't remember the date.. but.. umm duh.. I figured it out because it was the night we were on the bench.. so.. it was on the 17th... BUT.. ( Read more... )

I know its gross but I'm going to go to sleep with out taking a shower after my game.. I'm just too worn and I need to shave.. so I'll do it if I ever wake up.. I kind of just want it to be sunday.. :o(... so then it could be monday..and soo on. so today is.. saturday.. Tara comes back in 8 days.. her being gone is killing me. I'm going to keep all ( Read more... )

So a lot of single openly gay people surround me at school.. and I almost feel uncomfortable being without tara.. I like the fact that I just let things go over my head or let them seem that way.. and then.. later I'll go.. hmm yeah she just said this.. I have been reading a lot .. its really interesting.. I read this article about harry potter, ( Read more... )

Oy.. So Tara left for Italy today, It really hasn't hit me yet. I'm kind of glad she isn't around right now because I'm not in a good mood at all.. and I don't want her to see me this way. So Let me start with work.. I hate haagen dazs.. I hate it sooo much.. and I don't want to let anyone down so I don't want to quit. I work three days this week ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm keeping Tara away from things she wants to be doing.. I don't want to keep her from her friends, but I also don't want her to rush away asap... I didn't expect things to come soo soon, I keep on forgetting that I have school in two days and she leaves in a week. Today is a busy day... I won't be home from six until two tomorrow.. :o ( Read more... )

eh so its 10 and I don't feel like showering, I need to catch some sleep.. but eh I can't right now.. Side note real quick, my mom tried to wake me up from my nap to talk to me about some letter I got.. and I was really mean.. I don't even remember what I said.. but ooo she is not very happy with me at all.. but she will be gone all day tomorrow so ( Read more... )

hmm so I haven't written in a while and I have to go to work.. but.. I'm really excited about the tlc job.. excited about a job? what? is that normal? Haagen Dazs sucks.. and I don't want to work there.. but I also don't want to quit. Soccer is pretty good, it will be great once we don't have any 4 hour practices.. or practice on saturdays!:( lol ( Read more... )

Eh so I woke up really cold.. and I have a tmj headache... I haven't had that in awhile.. :o/ it's alright I'll live. I didn't wake up in the best mood though.. I'm not mad.. I feel sad.. but I know I'm not.. eh.. I don't know. I'm not really tired because I slept for.. 10 and a half hours. Last night my game against padua was alright, I could have ( Read more... )

hmm where did I leave off.. I was waiting for tara to call yesterday and I fell asleep.. then she came over and that was around.. 7 something.. eh? not sure.. then at 9 we went to bianncas.. hmm I think that is how you spell it.. to see her friend sarah.. hmm I don't know if I mentioned this but tara was seeing this girl Lisa.. whom she got into an ( Read more... )

So I'm trying to figure out what days are what.. hmm I saw tara on the 2.. 4 I think.. 5 and 6.. I didn't see her saturday or sunday.. I don't think.. and I saw her all this week except tuesday.. I think.. my days are mixing together so I really can't remember. On monday she came up to my soccer practice and I was surprised.. really surprised.. but ( Read more... )