Holy freaking crap, I haven't updated this in like forever! Yeah, well I forgot my other Log In name so I went to this one. I was such a loser! Good Lord, I was depressed as heck! Haha, oh well, that is my past. This is now. I'm not depressed...Simply stressed and overwhelemed. That and there is just ONE thing that keeps bothering me. I know what ( Read more... )

I'm making a new livejournal. However I am not going to post it on here cause this will be MY PERSONAL JOURNAL! Nobody will be able to comment on it. Especially that one anonymous fag. So this is the final entry of doogster.

I think this maybe my last journal. No, I'm not commiting suicide although I am considering it very much now. I wish I were dead. I pray at night before I go to bed that I may get lucky and die the next day. It's gone on too long. I don't want this anymore for me or you guys. I see that all I ever do is just be sad and complain and crap. I feel ( Read more... )

Well, I decided to stay home AGAIN! Thankfully, my parents weren't home today so there was absolutly no arguing and stuff. No, I'm not going to try to run away cause now that I think about it, there really aren't many places I can go. I am going to try to go to 4twelve though, I think it would do me good to go to church. My arms are also sore as a ( Read more... )

Well, today I stayed home to avoid going to school and getting into more stress and crap. Unfortunatly, I would have been better off going to school. My parents and I got into a huge argument which almost led to voilence. And when I say that I mean actuall hitting like fists. And once again, I am the one to blame...As always I am the one to blame. ( Read more... )

It has been a while since I have last updated. I guess I did that so that anonymous person would leave me alone and there isn't anything new. Things have actually gotten worse. It seems as if everybody is at war. I see everybody is like against each other now. It is somewhat funny how fast the group has broken apart and somewhat sad. I honestly ( Read more... )

This will be the death of me. I am no longer afraid to admit it. I still have some feelings for that one person. But I don't want to anymore. It's killing me. Tearing my life apart piece by piece. Day by day, I see my life turn more into hell. I'm tired of living like this. Nobody knows what it feels like to be awake all night looking at the clock ( Read more... )

Guys, I'm just about ready to break down and start crying. Stupid Faggot Dr. Swanson wants to give me ANOTHER day of ISS! I have served my time! I am not going into that room another day! And now I figured out my parents know how to get on my Journal! I have so much to do and I just don't want to go on. I'm tired of living like this. Waking up ( Read more... )

Nothing sucks more than being home on a Saturday night. I didn't want to go to cotillion cause it was a western kind with country and folk music and Nothing could ever get me to dance to that crap. Yeah, there was a Dover Drive show tonight but I wasn't really in the mood to go to any kind of show or something. Yeah, I didn't really want to stay ( Read more... )

ISS has to be the gayest thing in all the world. Sitting there doing nothing but work for 9 hours! Ugh! And omg, the teacher turns on the radio. See, work better with music and stuff but the music he plays is Rap! 9 Freaking hours of Rap music and work non stop. That sucked. I swear by the end of this year Dr. Swanson will hear my opinion about ( Read more... )