I haven't been this happy in awhile... I am not sure why I am this happy, but I do have some reason that come to mind when I think why I have been happy lately. I cant stop smiling right now since I am thinking about this person... I havent felt like this in months maybe even in a year or so... I have been clean for almost 2 weeks believe it or not ( Read more... )

it has happened, the unthinkable for me.... something i never thought would happen again.... but yet i know its right.

Well today I put my Papaw in his final resting place, it was awful..... then people are pissing me off; I dont think that these people understand that people change, and some of these people just dont understand that I was going to change and I have for the better.... and it was the same thing some of these people did to myself....So they can kiss ( Read more... )

the visitation was horrible, yet beautiful... i had to leave several times, everything was beautiful, i know i will have more trouble tommarrow at the funeral.

One day everyone will understand myself and my ways..... Untill then they will just know that I am a friend..... I am more than meets the eye..... As soon as they see this, they will understand my tourments; as one only one person knows now..... That person will one day understand most of the things I have said to them..... Like why I insist the ( Read more... )

Rest In Peace : Billy Hawkins Sr ( Read more... )

Author: Joshua Lee Hawkins ( Read more... )

as i stood there holding my papaws hand i felt him leave and come back to the sound of my voice, he kept hold of my hand for a little less than an hour. i kept teasing him trying to escape him from the pain of knowing he was going to die. he told me it would be soon, that he would die. but i kept my eyes dry. before i left i gave him a hug and told ( Read more... )

Wouldnt it be wrong if you stole anothers happiness to keep yours? Wouldnt it be wrong if you made someone feel miserable, just so breath, to feel good again? Why would someone do this? I have no clue but it is really getting old... But hell thats life! Its really funny, when its opposite of the that, when you sacrifice your happiness so they can ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt as if Satan,God,or some other religious person/thing has sent you here to help some one get through with there problems and thats all you were here to do on this earth?