so i really need to get on the ball with working out.  i have been losing weight, but i don't necessarily look good ( Read more... )

somewhere around 1am we decided to escape to new orleans.  of course i got stupid drunk.  i was forced to ask kate if we could crash at her place.  and of course she said yes.  got there around 6am.

my first time to see her since everything happened.  that is definitely a sober you up moment.  i don't know how i feel about it.  i'm so very not over ( Read more... )

isn't it fun to wear someone else's underwear?  i feel like i have a dirty little secret.

i haven't posted in a super long time.  and i don't intend to pour out the past 2 years onto this thing ( Read more... )

oh yeah, and i'm still up because i've been up all night throwing up over it.  thanks.

so what do you do when you feel the impending doom, you know it's going to happen, and you may have a slight chance of stopping it, but getting in touch with that person is impossible?  normally, i would expect the common respect to talk about it.  just talk to me about it.  but you can't even answer the phone ( Read more... )

do you ever have dreams (nightmares) where you wake up shaking and crying?

long time with no update.  and not a lot has been happening ( Read more... )

i'm tired of crying.  i'm tired of being edgy and upset over everything.  and i'm especially tired of fucking up.  
i'm sorry.  i'm sorry i got upset over something silly.  bear with me?

In case any of you were wondering what i've been up to...
don't click it if you have a slow connection cuz there are several large pictures.

i went to gay pride in pensacola
we drank a lot of beer on the way there... (notice the street sign...we were about 20 miles outside of h'burg...and it was 9:30am.)

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