To touch the rose unfearful ( Read more... )

I grabbed hold of the opportunity to visit Kayla in Flagstaff this weekend and am so glad I did. Although I was expecting to drive up myself, I found that it was great to have my parents accompany me (which was epecially nice when Kayla was working; I had some company). Kayla has an absolutely beautiful home in one of the most gorgeous ( Read more... )

there is a possibility that the west campus may close in the relatively near future, and to be honest, it scares me. i always had this plan set in place to spend my four years of college a mere twenty minutes from my house, but that ideal is now translating into reality only in the most uncertain way. i mean, it would take some time, maybe even a ( Read more... )

these past few days have urged me to write again - just something short, a way of detailing what i’ve seen and heard and experienced.  i don’t want to forget, and i don’t want to leave my friends in the dark, wondering what’s going on in my life.

today i got to sit and chat with andie and kayla for a couple of hours.  i hadn’t seen andie since kim’s ( Read more... )

in a few hours i will find myself in a crowded and noisy van, driving up north to a campground near the mogollon rim.  pitching tents, cooking our own food, and unplugged worship times are a far cry from the extravagant experience of point loma summer camps with east valley bible church, but i for one am looking forward to it.  i’ve increasingly ( Read more... )

“when she came into a room, his eyes would fix upon her without shame, and i have seen her avert her face and blush for the boldness of his glance when company was present.  but i think that it was done by him unawares, his partiality for her was so great” (robert penn warren, all the king’s men).

this is benjamin esh.  i do not understand why, but ( Read more... )

my current circumstances are kind of surreal.  the thing that i have been wanting so badly these past six months has finally been presented to me, and i have taken hold of it.  i'm not sure the reality of it has quite registered in my mind yet.  what i do know is that my heart was pounding when i talked with ben on the phone tonight and discussed ( Read more... )

Lord, why do You allow this burden of pain?
   My heart is fragile --
   it is crushed easily.
My hopes had begun to rise up.
   Why do You pin them down?
   Why do You say to me, "No"?
I do not understand Your ways;
   I do not understand myself, even.

Why do You still withhold this gift from me?
   When will Your timing be right?
   Will it ever be?  I do ( Read more... )

my life is full to the brim, and it’s starting to really consume me.  the list of activities i’m involved in is ridiculous.  i generally enjoy being busy, but it’s starting to take its toll on me and wear me down.  my weaknesses are acutely apparent to me, and my energy is drained at all of the wrong moments.  days are so long; it will be ( Read more... )

i ran into my honors professor, dr. ramsey, at starbucks today.  i said hello to be friendly, and after greeting me he asked if i’ve ever read any of thoreau’s work.  i told him that i (sort of) read walden my junior year, and that i didn’t like it very much then, but i imagine i would enjoy it more now.  “do you have a moment to sit?” he asked.

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