the ocean floor begins to disappear
i sense that terrible depth
the open water is my only fear
but i'll sail as long as i still have breath in me
i'm starting to believe the ocean's much like You
‘cause it gives, and it takes away

i was contemplating this song last night as i was in bed.  lately i’ve been feeling a strange sort of restlessness inside me. ( Read more... )

it’s as if my feelings for ben are asleep.  they rest somewhere in the back of my mind where i can look at them every now and then and acknowledge their presence, though i don’t make much of a connection with them.  but every now and then, they wake up abruptly, like when you jolt awake from a nightmare - sweating, breathing hard, heart racing, ( Read more... )

 prepare your outside work, make it fit for youself in the field; and afterward build your house.

aunt lisa shared this verse from proverbs with me and ben when we met last thursday.  i think she intended it more for him to hear, but i have taken it to heart in such a profound way.  what work does God have for me now?  what are my dreams for the ( Read more... )

 
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there's something beautiful about driving through the rain with the windows rolled down. and it makes me wonder if everyone would be happier if they cared less about the interior of their car getting wet and more about savoring the things we so easily forget to even pay attention to.

the fullness of Your grace is here with me.
the richness of Your ( Read more... )

 today's My Utmost for His Highest was interesting to me.

we have to battle through our moods into absolute devotion to the Lord Jesus, to get out of the hole-and-corner business of our experience into abandoned devotion to Him. ... think of what faith in Jesus Christ claims -- that He can present us faultless before the throne of God, unutterably ( Read more... )

the ncc student ministries group held a worship night in the whitens' backyard this evening.  kha led everyone in song with his guitar and his voice, accompanied by my percussion and a few female vocals.  i adore all of the songs that were chosen, but a few were particularly encouraging, and i believe that they're worth sharing.  here is my overall ( Read more... )

i cannot even describe how amazing God has been.  there is simply no adjective that can properly describe the joy i have been filled with at the increasing revelations at God's hand in my life.  it's absolutely ridiculous.  i can't even wrap my mind around it, or understand why God is being so good to me.  He has been so unbelievably evident in my ( Read more... )

this photograph pretty much encompasses how i feel about life right now:


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"unhappy as the event must be for lydia, we may draw from it this useful lesson: -- that loss of virture in a female is irretrievable, that one false step involves her in endless ruin, that her reputation is no less brittle than it is beautiful, and that she cannot be too much guarded in her behaviour towards the undeserving of the other sex."
-mary ( Read more... )