So I think maybe I'm ok to start this thing back up...

With some noticeable changes of course.

Any one for or against this potential comeback?

ok.

I am finished. I'm cutting every indirect source and some direct sources of communication from everyone. So don't be suprised if I don't answer your phone calls. Not that anyone gives a shit anyway.

So long and goodnight.

Dads Drunk.

He just asked my little sis for her money, she is 8 years old. I gave him everything in my wallet and told him not to go near her again.

I am alone.

You can't come home.

hello darkness my old friend, i'm here to talk with you again.Inter-racial fight today at the gray ( Read more... )

omg. guess what?!

WORK IS FUN!I work with a lot of guys and they are so cool. Especially this one manager that is exceptionally great. They are all hilarious and nice. Oh and I can eat for free as long as I tell that one cool manager and I can also take a break whenever as long as I tell someone and its slow. Since I work weeknights it's ( Read more... )

Things I am dreading:

1) Going to productions with out a duet script or acceptable DI.
2) Pre cal test 2nd period. Really nervous although I am going to study and get it down the best I can, it still worries me.
3) U.S. History on tuesday.
4) Physics test 3rd period, I haven't been paying attention.
5) Writing my english essay.6) Knowing I have ( Read more... )

So the weekend was pretty awesome...Dom, John, and Billy came into town. It was so great seein them again. I missed all of them so much. Being aroun each of them makes me so happy. It feels good to look at them and know everything is ok. And if it isn't, they are there no matter what. I just missed one punk ass...I also saw faf which was nice ( Read more... )

I saw you today. And after I couldn't stop the tears. I had held them in so long being angry. I didn't want to give them to you. I didn't want you or let myself think you were worth any...but you are. I thought a long time about the past, again for the first time since I last talked to you. I remember everything. Every detail...does that ( Read more... )

I got another journal so I won't have to vent in this one as much anymore ( Read more... )

John left today. Took me to school, then left. Dammit. That hurt. I guess since he didn't leave with everyone else I felt a deep reassurance in his presence. Now he's gone. Really fuckin gone.

White Oleanders is final. I have to read, cut, memorize, and start creating a charactor tonight.

I want to sleep away this internal exhaustion.

I want to scream at my self in the mirror
I want to be held by you
I want to leave and never come back
I want to act
I want guys to stop being guys and let me breathe
I want to do yoga
I want to be free
I want to let my self love my father
I want to run awayI want my appetite to come back ( Read more... )