Tonight I will, apparently, workshop my poetry for the first time in a classroom setting, ever. I'm pretty nervous. I've never gotten critical feedback on my work from anyone else my age besides Josh.  For some reason, lately, I've gotten to a point of my poetry writing that I cannot judge whether my work is any good or not. I'm not sure why that ( Read more... )

So much for writing a bunch on here. Oh, well ( Read more... )

Well, that was a waste of time. Yet again, I gave myself over to the seductive thought of my mom changing...only to end up with her psychotic bullshit voodoo-ridiculousness blown up in my face like a shotgun. Wooooo Nicole...when are you ever going to call it quits and just understand that any type of connection with her is fucking impossible ( Read more... )

Warm clothes? Done. Christmas shopping? Done ( Read more... )

I sure do feel sick. Nauseous, tired, weak...not good. I'm at the front desk now, and I have a doctors appointment after to get my last "I'm gonna be one less, one less!" shot. Then I'm on call--then staff meeting at 10. Ugh. I'm not sure if this is still lingering from being up all night Saturday, or if I'm coming down with something...but it does ( Read more... )

As You Make a Fool of YourselfYou smell like my grandmother’s ( Read more... )

University of Massachusetts. AHHHHHH.

I think I have everything ready. I hope so. I should make a list for myself, that always helps.

This is an amazing song:

Satellite Skin - Modest Mouse

If you break these moth wing feelings
Powdering dust on your fingers
We know we're not praying we're kneeling
Hard enough just to say you believe them
Well how the heck did you think you could beat them
At the same time that you're trying to be them
Hard enough just to say you don't need it when ( Read more... )

Something has been whispering in the very back of my brain (ever since I gave up Wicca/Paganism) that I'm missing something. It's this little niggling in my mind that's whispering "Maybe you shouldn't have cut yourself off...maybe all of that did have some sort of realness to it...what's the harm of exploring it again...if it's not real, there's no ( Read more... )

 I'm serious. . .I've had it up to HERE with all the fucking health problems that keep coming my way! Now, because things weren't already UNHEALTHY enough, I've acquired a lovely UTI, and my period has randomly decided to show up AGAIN. WTF?! My stomach is hurting so bad from both the UTI and the random period that I can hardly stand up straight. I ( Read more... )