It takes many tries and different turns around corners to come right back to where I started from. Where did I start from, not only the wrong question but a stupid one? I change always to become better, experience life, and just get away from what I know. Every time shows the same thing, I come right back to where I began. The only thing along ( Read more... )

For one thing for the first few lines Im going to diss women, sorry I dont care! What the fuck is in about EMO, is it hot to be sad and pathetic now and days..or to spill your drama to the world, GROW the FUCK UP. Plus girls that play the "I cant get over my X card", along with "my Boys in the military." With both subjects, the men are fucking ( Read more... )

I dont know what is up or down. The things i want to happen arent the things happening, but in reverse. The friend I have come to charish is the one to decieve me. The women that i want is merely a girl coming into her own and the girl I see is nothing of a girl but a woman coming into the world.. I want both but none will have me. The drugs ( Read more... )

I have tried my fare share of drugs but I never know the impact till I left them alone for a while. Now even when I take sleeping pills and wake up the experience reminds me of being hi. I love it. Its really hard for me to do anything right now because I dont want to move but listen to trance/ close my eyes/ and lie on this floor naked. Every ( Read more... )

Early or late as you will in the morning I sit in disbelief that I am one day closer to being gone. I have been making arrangements all around from this to that, but the important one that I see is the way I confronted the way I feel to a very special person. I will never be mad at her for wanting a life that only she could provide. From there ( Read more... )

I was just thinkin tonight after I just got out a goodnight being with fellow friends that arent afraid of makn trouble to have fun. Is it me just seeing this or all girls busted? they either come as druggies, girls wanting their x's/ cant get over em, moody, abcessed over the littlest things, clingy, stuffy, to good for anyone except for the ( Read more... )

........And Im a spaze about it! I know what I have to do and Im doing it. Losing weight from the break, cardio for bettering my time/ fitness towards my lungs, and just getting motivated to go. But theres something wrong, my bodies screaming for satifaction from somewhere else. When I talk to people Im somewhere else, I always seem to be ( Read more... )

Well for most of you, you got to sleep while I had many thoughts running around my head. Thoughts of people around me here and now, my brothers going far away soon, me leaving very very soon, losing my fatness, but more importantly Jessica and God. I know I shouldnt even waste my time on the past, but now its all I think about. Her face, your ( Read more... )

Im know when and where I will be FEB 1st.....Parris Island mother fuckers! Of course Im not ready but who ever is? My back will either be ready or it wont! I have to be a man about all of this and cheer the fuck up. Ive learned so far that Im a fake to what I think I am. A man...far from it because I dont know the meaning of respect, honor, or ( Read more... )

To all who know me and to all who dont, I have the luck of a gambler...bad at all times. I get what I want, but what I get isnt what I intended to have. Ive learned my lessons recently to just leave the sentual part of dating out of it. I dont ask, I dont tell, I dont even start the conversation of what they want. With that all said ( Read more... )