Things are getting better. being a social hermit for a little while works. i have realized that i lost myself recently. i lost who i was, who i am. i searched for my true self for many years and i guess i had found it when i stopped looking sometime in high school. i'm finding myself again, slowly but surely.. and God is helping me ( Read more... )

Lost in a whirlwind ( Read more... )

today was an interesting day. i have been thinking about a question posed to me awhile ago- "what do you do in your free time?" I've thought of jokingly saying "what free time?" and today i was curious. after i finished a test early around 10:15, i calculated that i had 4 hrs and 15 mins of free time if i wanted to get 7 1/2 hours of sleep. today ( Read more... )

i'd like to think it's not my fault that my colds last so long. i get my vitamin c and try to get a good amount of sleep... i've been thinking about Bosch lately. I guess i always do but... hm. *sigh

I LOVE MY ENGLISH CLASS/PROFESSOR!!! :)

A little late, but here it is:

Gliding over the reflective glass
its motion beckons me to penetrate its churning surface
its intermittent blinding sparks offer me a refuge
from the triumphs and defeats of substance
its metallic waves enrapture me
until i recall the source of blindness
and turn my thoughts towards light

Among other things, it seems that there is rebellion latent within us. This isn't necessarily negative, but there is a drive that leads us to want to be different. to question. some are more aware of it than others. with some you can see the rebellion through their actions. This rebellion is said to hit us in our teens, and it does... but it is ( Read more... )

Lately it feels like I'm walking in a painting. The sky just has a misty dreamy look to it with clouds that are just as dreamy... and the park is so picturesque and tranquil almost to the point of laziness.. but in a good way of course. Everything is so bright yet soft in some way... maybe things just keep getting blurrier as my eyes get worse and ( Read more... )

Well, I just saw "The Three Faces of Eve", about a woman in the 50s with dissociative identity disorder (multiple personalities). Afterward my dad talked about a client he had withed it and what her identities were like. We got on the subject of schizophrenia too, which was good to talk about. I was a little weirded out by both so we talked about ( Read more... )

I knew today was going to be amazing right when I stepped outside of my door. I could smell it even before I got to look at the sky. It was my favorite kind of day with a blue sky and puffy white Simpsons clouds. It was soooo beautiful. I was really happy today- just because- for the first time in awhile. There was Baha'i booth and a Baha'i club ( Read more... )