Its my Birthday today..I think they get worse as the years go by. Getting old really does suck. I can never fully enjoy my bday, I always have the thought of tony in my head. Hard to forget burying your cousin on your bday. It just kind of stays with you. I feel like im in a bad place right now. Im miserable constantly, nothing ever works out the ( Read more... )

So I think its time for an update- its been forever since I wrote anything down. I can remember how much this journal meant to me a few years ago. Now its a forgotten memory...like most of my past ( Read more... )

So I bascially hate guys. Yep. They all have to be the same, do the same shit, say the same shit...whatever im over it ( Read more... )

i want normal! who knows what that really means, i just need to have it ( Read more... )

i havent had one of these nights in awhile. tossing and turning with a swoon of thoughts rushing through my head. lately i havent given myself the chance to really sit down and think about what i want. before now i always had some idea; i wanted to go to college, i wanted to spend every sec with my best friend and the person who i thought i was ( Read more... )

so i really like him...and i dont wanna say that cause it always ends up me looking like an ass in the end. but i think i just jinxed it. that kind of sucks.

im very content... :)

ive just realized how for the past three years of my life have been a complete joke. every person that i have met or had some connection with has lied to me in some way. realizing the relationship that i was in for a year in a half was all a lie kind of sucks. but i guess i should just brush this one off again like everything else. people are ( Read more... )

Well ( Read more... )

Ok.. so im going to try and update only when really amazing things happen to me so i dont sound like the depressed person that i am ( Read more... )

havent written in about two months and well nothing has really changed in my life very much ( Read more... )