My shrink said this is perfectly normal. Its only been two months. This is normal to still be hurting, to still be hung up on someone. Especially since he was #2, the first real anything in that area. I protected my heart as well as I could. Stupid genetic flaw...I'm a girl. He's perfect, probably always will be in my mind. He's everything I've ( Read more... )

Matt's back in town. Remember Matt from two years ago Matt. Yeah......Just ran into him, good stuff.

So I was miserable on Saturday after someone at the bar told me I looked like Java the Hut, seriously why are people so mean to me? I don't do a damn thing to them. So the boys offered to share some of their Molly with me...omg did that ever help. I sat in the middle of Joel's floor petting his pillow, which I named Dewey, for over an hour. Haha. ( Read more... )

SW wrote to me today. Said he was just checking in. He's still the most amazing person on the planet. If it weren't for him, for his band.....

He thanked me for getting my spiders. I'll cherish what they mean always.

"I need music to set me free, to let me bleed..."

I'm scared.

I forgot just how good Christian rock is, if you don't pay attention strongly to the lyrics. I mean my old room is filled with NU Metal everything. So I found some Skillet, some Day of Fire, some Red, some Pillar, and some Decipher Down...made me giggle considering I'm such a proclaimed atheist ( Read more... )

Nothing like awkward moments over at my Grandparents' - my 18 year old cousin is pregnant and no one said a word - we all just avoided it like the plague. I told her I wanted to punch her in the face. We all knew it was going to happen, we all called this about 6 years ago. Some scumbag 25 year old did this to her. Why the fuck was this guy with an ( Read more... )

Surprising, they were really good in concert. But that's beside the point. In the past 2 months I have made out with over 10 people, gone on 7 dates, and have been guilty and disappointed the whole time. Every guy sucks. No one has anything in common with me: they don't read, don't write, don't like foreign films, don't like documentaries, don't ( Read more... )

You ever meet someone and think they're perfect? Then come to find out 7 months later they were the exact opposite of 'perfection.' This has happened to me. I was warned not to trust someone, but I still let my heart fall. I was even warned by said person that I would eventually hate him. Truth. I am tired of all these little girls friend ( Read more... )

I listened to Ryan Cabrera today and cried...I cried because 5 years ago this week I was in my first real relationship, with the first guy to ever say they loved me...and I fucked everything up, and always have with every guy ever since. I wrote to JH today saying we should try a friendship, its been 5 years, had I known we'd never be friends, I ( Read more... )

So fucking miserable.