My son go to a shrink on a regular basis..if I could I prolly would as well..but I ride a bike and that seems to focus my anger what have you and give me some sort of release..but this isnt about me its about my son and my X...so my X writes a letter to my son's shrink...explaining that she wants a relationship with my son..and blames her mother.. ( Read more... )

So last night/this morning..I was watching alot of Rammstein videos and they crept into my dreams..I NEVER get dreams like this...if I did..I'd prolly sleep more...anyway..I woke up around 7ish I think with one dream of being in a steel mill with the members of Rammstein and they made me a custom motorcycle..(there was also some 1/2 naked women ( Read more... )

Today was a nightmare...a pure damn nightmare...I-85 was sooo crowded today...most people past me like I was standing still...but the worst thing was people riding my ass....even truckers...I havent been down to ATL in 4+ years...for me it was everything I could do to not scream today...I dont think Ive ever been this nervous in my life...there ( Read more... )

well..my friend texted me today...they seem to be doing better..which is good..I have been very very worried...not hearing from someone who you use to have alot of contact with is very troubling...I thought it might be getting bad..but it has seemed to turn itself around (the sickness that is)..its alot of medical issues...stomach..head...the list ( Read more... )

EVERYBODY GETS WHAT THEY WANT.....EVERYFUCKING BODY...I get fucking zip..nothing..nada...why cant I have someone to make me happy?

I wish life was easier..I wish it wasnt so hard to find someone to be with....damn..why is it so hard for me?...I know Im fat..I have fat on my body I never thought I'd ever have..I try and try to lose weight...but it just does not come off...thats all women seem to want...a hot guy...fun etc etc and a friend as well...the bad thing I am all those ( Read more... )

So the weather has gotten to 70s...perfect for riding..I get home from work and hop on my bike for a nice ride...so Im riding along and I come out of the woods and walk up the road a bit to cross the road...there is a slight incline and its better to cross there rather than some car topping the hill at 50+ MPH and scare the hell out of me and them ( Read more... )

Damn Im lonely and its getting worse..I am sooo tired of being alone..with little to no friends..no contact...nothing..it sucks...K keeps talking about moving back here...but Im tired of helping her out with this and that...thats all I seem to do help people out..its not like I hate it or anything..but once it would be nice for someone to help me ( Read more... )

Well..one of my friends (a female) has asked me to marry her..weird I know..she said that since that we are friends and that Im nice to her...that I have always helped her out and not wanted anything in return..that we would make a good pair...the older I get..the lonelier I get..I do not see myself with anyone in the near future..dating is next to ( Read more... )

So yesterday I ran into a girl I use to know...well..actually she noticed me and kinda freaked me out..I was looking at her like..then it dawned on me who she was...she has changed a bit..and she looks very very good...but thats besides the point...so anyway we use to be kinda friends and I use to ask her to go to concerts with me..and she went ( Read more... )