Comments | drowning_kitten: anger.management

drowning_kitten

anger.management

Apr 17, 2004 21:42

i feel fucking belligerent for no apparent reason. i wanna kick someone's ass. i think it's the whole recovery drama shit. woohoo for outrageous and confusing emotions surfacing at the most inappropriate times. i think i'm pissed off because i've been thinking about tracy. that and the fact that i was so shaken after her funeral i took a small dose ( Read more... )

Comments 13

onesoulost April 17 2004, 23:20:34 UTC

deep breath. hang in there...

drowning_kitten May 1 2004, 19:03:50 UTC

i miss you josh... i wish i had the fucking guts to tell you how miserable i am. instead i'm dead silence on the other end of the line. i'll try my best to find a way to come see you... i don't know what to do without my closest friends by my side. i wish i had the fucking sense to tell someone how i really feel.

nemoria April 18 2004, 02:42:10 UTC

call me sometime
310-809-6480
thats my cell phone

im always here for you

drowning_kitten May 1 2004, 18:54:33 UTC

jazzy i love you and i miss you so much i wish you knew... you actually bothered to fucking drive out to see me. you were my best fucking friend and now you're gone... why do things have to go to complete shit before turning around again?

nemoria May 2 2004, 03:39:19 UTC

im not gone... i'll never be gone.. :(

nemoria May 2 2004, 03:41:30 UTC

damnit thats not all i wanted to say
i want you to know that im here, and yeah i know im in cali, but damnit if we could find a way i would bring you out here with me...

i miss you a lot too.. :( much more than i think you know.. you will always be my best friend... regardless of what happens... im gonna be in texas at the end of June... i must see you...

i love you!!!

~jazzy

statik April 20 2004, 14:27:24 UTC

[B]Quote[B/] "addiction is so reliable, everytime you're in trouble and need to be swindeled a little further, it's hiding around the corner waiting for your desperate cries for help."

I feel you on that one.

I hope everythings working out in your favor now, at least a little bit more than it was how ever. Call me if you need to talk. I know this can be a rough time...

Garrett-

New Cell: 589-5446

drowning_kitten May 1 2004, 18:55:24 UTC

thanks man... i read your journal the other day to see how you were doing. i hope things are better for you than they are for me. i'll be sure to call

statik May 5 2004, 12:16:40 UTC

=)

right on

d_mobb April 20 2004, 20:34:28 UTC

where are you goin to NA meetings?, i've been trying to find one since i've been out of starlite

drowning_kitten May 1 2004, 18:57:53 UTC

the only worthwhile NA meeting i've found is regeneration X sunday nites at shoal creek... other than that i go to Club 101 for the CA meetings and Lambda for really good AA meetings. a lot of the folks at Lambda are addicts too so they can relate really well to the shit addicts go through unrelated to alcoholism. in fact my sponsor goes to Lambda and she used to be a junkie too, then got on methadone for 10 years. it's "gay sensitive" but anyone's welcome. they're really nice fucking people

missed your birthday . . . falcon13 April 27 2004, 17:09:08 UTC

when I was out of town and disconnected from Internet. Best wishes, if a little late!

Re: missed your birthday . . . drowning_kitten May 1 2004, 18:59:17 UTC

thanks. and what a birthday it was. i drank and smoked pot, and my mom found out! woohoo for relapse, and so much for keeping a fucking secret. i got to spend the evening with 2 of my favorite people though and it turned out to be one of the best nites i've had since being home.