this year was nothing like last year's 4th. though i did have plenty of fun, i also got pretty hurt. but i'm sooooooo fucking over it. over trying. i'll admit i can be a bitch, but i certainly wasn't a bitch yesterday or today, so i don't appreciate getting treated like shit for no reason. maybe if i had several consistent examples of how i'm a ( Read more... )

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i thought about it today, when i was watching depressing and scary movies. i was really unnerved by the movies, and i just wanted to curl up in a ball, be held. in your arms. and i think like that a bunch. it just kills me sometimes. to have you as my first choice source of comfort when i'm upset or sad or scared. but i thought about it. you. and ( Read more... )

and i hope laura gets home okay ( Read more... )

majority rules and the verdict is that i'm a bitch. even though i never fucking try to be. i'm a selfish bitch, so i understand why people don't like me or want to hang out with me. i finally get it.

sometimes i just really want to rip the hair right the fuck out of my head. how is it that the entire planet's population has managed to piss me off all fucking day? i don't fucking know. first i had a hang over, but i was so trying to be over that, but as soon as i fucking walked into panera today i knew that wasn't gonna happen ( Read more... )

so i found this old piece of paper that had some quotes from a book i read last year on it. i don't remember the book, but i love these quotes ( Read more... )

yes. yes i did. and that was the highlight of my day. it was today's big event. i can stand up proud and announce to the world that i made hummus. i am now one of those people. you know. the hummus-makers. woohoo ( Read more... )

and i'm gonna love it. gonna sleep in until whenever i wake up. nothing really set, except a few things i have to do throughout the day. i thought i would have had moretime to ahng with people, but i really don't like trying to cram too many things in a day, so i'm gonna do my errands first, hang out second ( Read more... )

this certainly isn't hell.....i've had too many happy times in my life for this to be hell, and clearly, as if i even need to state it, this cannot be heaven. therefore, this is purgatory. that explains why, for every series of ups, there is an equal or greater series of downs. why i feel like my life is simply a redundant series of tests, ( Read more... )