life is so good.
being engaged is so good.
love is so good.

i am engaged and oh so happy!! 

wow.
some times when you meet someone and you don't understand them, you know something is missing.
then you learn what it is and you wish you hadn't because it makes a hole in you.
and you realize that for however big the hole may be in you, the hole is so much bigger and deeper in them.

There is always something to confuse me beyond my understanding

i wish it would stop because tears seem to be the only cure. and even that is just a cover up

ahhh ( Read more... )

i am home.
and i am happy to be here.

being here has made such a difference in my life. I feel like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I am more willing to work hard in school. I have a job. My friends are wonderful and the most loving people i have ever met. In four short weeks i learned that you don't have to work and work, day after day to be happy. really happy. i feel ( Read more... )

it is my last night at calvin college, well actually the last morning seeing as its almost 3am. me and bets are staying awake "all night" but we are shifting nap times. :) mine is starting like now ish and i have to get to it. i have a business exam tomorrow which will be fine i think... but who knows. i don't really care. it doesn't matter here or ( Read more... )

i have made a decision... i am transferring to Hope College and i am so excited about it. scared... but very excited. there are so many possibilities opening up for me. i am so pumped. the only downside is not living with my wonderful roommate betsy b. she is the sweetest thing and i love her but i know i am not going to lose her. she is wonderful ( Read more... )

i am so fed up with feeling like the choices that i make are not my own. and when i do want to make a choice for me, its not the right thing to do. by whose standards though? everyone here says that i am making the right choice but the ones that actually have a say in my life don't seem to care. The two people that should know you the best in this ( Read more... )