it doesn't really make a difference because i write things that no one understands anyway. i still write on paper. i will always write in my unorganized journals, pieces of scrap paper, parking tickets, and receipts. i will always write for me. i just don't know how to write for anyone else.

ps--i miss cory, our love for kitties, and understanding ( Read more... )

to forgive 7 X 70
to be 438 times closer
than 52 long miles away
to burn mathematical equations of love into the air
instead of burning the remembrance of pain onto the skin
to extinguish bittered tongues and angry hearts
with grace and mercy
to count the variables of peace
to make 23 a number i can look back on
and smile

do you ever wonder why you survived something when others did not? have you ever felt guilty for breathing when others have stopped, because you don't know why you're the one who made it out.. and maybe you think it isn't fair or maybe you just don't understand it. step outside, barefoot, onto the cold asphalt pavement of the wet street. the voices ( Read more... )

yesterday i felt vulnerable for the first time in a while. i'm not used to feeling anything, really. living is about taking risks and chances. i'm just not used to this. i'm happier than i've been in a long time, but i don't feel as safe as i did when i was dead inside.

(don't confuse your truth with your pain.)

you guys update too often. i have pages of lj to read.

things have been flippin' sweet and unexpected and good. except that i moved dot's litter box to the basement and she doesn't like it there, so she pees in the litter box and poops in the living room. feles mala! cur cista non uteris? stramentum novum in ea posui.translation ( Read more... )

( take all your problems and rip them apart. )

i am cutting off my hair; long curly ringlets. a little girl with cancer is going to wear my hair and think it is beautiful.

i have never seen my lips this red without any lip paint.

( farewell to autumn and the tracing of your leg, whoever you are. (me?) )

( the sky was blue beyond compare. )