Soooo. Elliots Cocktail party? Whaaat. Bringing in the new year kissing a cutie while bob marley sings three little birds. That was a happy fucking instant, like most instances recently. Life is Good. Sick kids though, not so good. Endless nights of frustration, not so good either. Grounding-- eh yeah it sucks but who says im even gonna go along ( Read more... )

Pretty soon itll be a year since the mutant bear attack. OR the misuse of a carving knife incident. Or the effects of clonazepam and cheap beer catastrophe. Choose your title of the event, its about to have its anniversary. FIrst off I feel much more sane than I did last year at this time. And theres actually a cutie around now who finds me very ( Read more... )

I'm happy. I haven't had the whole butterflies thing going on in a while, andddd fuck I dunno I'm just ecstatic. I think this is a good thing, I don't wanna fuck it up. But oh my god damn it's gunna be hard to be a good kid with such persuasive techniques being used ( Read more... )

No, and I ain't lookin' to fight with you
Frighten you or uptighten you
Drag you down or drain you down
Chain you down or bring you down
All I really want to do
Is baby, be friends with you

I know its impossible.
But that doesn't help the hole in my chest feeling of longing.
It won't go away.
I try not to call or ( Read more... )

virginwallflower (8:25:30 PM): i tripped shrooms friday and i could liek... feel love so much more
Nepaloni (8:25:28 PM): hmm?
virginwallflower (8:25:44 PM): it was like all the bullshit and static of normal everyday life was gone
virginwallflower (8:25:53 PM): and like love made more sense
Nepaloni (8:25:42 PM): aw
Nepaloni (8:25:44 PM): ( Read more... )

I wasn't as aroused as i was concerned ( Read more... )

For the first five people that reply to me and re-post this challenge, I will send you something. It might be something I've made, or something cool from my hidden stash, it might be a mix CD, or a rubber duck, a book I think you will enjoy, or something else that is awesome. Whatever it is, I promise that I will get it to you in 365 days or fewer ( Read more... )

Thunder only happens when its rainin ( Read more... )

Well you know what. It sucks.
I will probably suck for a while. But slowly the feelings will lose intensity and eventually cease.
This is a guaranteed type of thing, and its beautiful.
I went out to the back of my neighborhood and sat on a mound of dirt until I felt sane.
Nietzche says I will be stronger.

So that is how I learned the lesson that ( Read more... )

I don't care if it hurts
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
when I'm not around
So fucking special
I wish I was special...

Oh you know things are bad when I'm feeling like radiohead lyrics.

Saw the therapist today. We discussed Anatomy, Recent Sad Shit, and my skipping school. Shes nice to talk to even ( Read more... )