I am sitting here choking on my own tears and every time I try to talk to someone I love, I cry harder and wish that I could just hold them and let them know how much I do love them. It really sucks when the few people in a new place you feel you can talk to and finally believe you have people to trust, they insult the person you are closest to ( Read more... )

It's started. All I had to do was walk around a corner, and that one expression let it all begin for me. I remember now what how to feel submerged and tomorrow will only make it more clear. We have placement class but I am just looking forward to dancing again. Perhaps those around me may not be as welcoming as I would prefer but the teachers are ( Read more... )

I have never wanted cardboard boxes so badly as I do now. I am still waiting on my stuff which should have already been here and I am becoming a little panicked because the mail office on campus will not be open again until Monday after 5 today which means my first day of school, after placement class and nerves so great that I won't be able to eat ( Read more... )

I have returned from the jungle of summer now to be fully in contact with the rest of the world. I think subconsciously my mind decided to take a vacation from the rest of the world to give me the time I needed to regain my true self and thoughts. I definitely refurbished my mind and soul during the summer and came to light with my one self. I am ( Read more... )

I had to do this in blue b/c I am back at Intie. Summer has shown it's face to me for the first time in a while. This is what a summer is supposed to be. Friends asking me what time I get off so we can figure out when to leave and be kids. I have conversed with a complete drunken stranger and have watched kids smoke illegally and legally but the ( Read more... )

I am taking comfort in the thunder that is echoing through my neighborhood. It's sunny and raining at the same time, oddly reflective of my mood. There are so many memories that are constantly washing over me. I finally let it be known that I am home which was wonderful. I really do appreciate those who have obtained an extreme amount of normalcy. ( Read more... )

I just unpacked my last tub. I am done finished and I am so ready for life to be the same. The only time I am not completely going nuts is when I am sorting through physical reminders of my years at Interlochen. I need to get out of the house and actually talk and look at people my own age. Adults can be satisfying for their maturity but I have ( Read more... )

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