my head is clearer tonight. i cant believe it's taken me this long to begin to fully realize certain patterns, like how there isnt some scale which all people can be located on, ranking how much i should be friends with them, how old their souls are, or anything really. beauty depends on where and when they're placed ( Read more... )

There is snow falling,
but the stars are out!

i was just about to write my great aunt and i couldnt remember if her name had one or two r's, so i tried googling her, and this article came up as the third site ( Read more... )

i'm in one of those moods where it seems like if i had made different decisions in life, where to go to college especially, i would be happier. and i am pretty happy here most of the time, but what if what if what if. it would be easier if i believed in fate, maybe i will someday. and i'm afraid i'll regret where i decided to live next year. i wish ( Read more... )

i'm not tired anymore, because i've been reading about what's responsible for poverty and been getting angrier and sadder and confuseder with every subsection on "Imperialism" and "The Population Explotion" because it all seems to come from an increase of technology, EVERYTHING. and for one, why did this first come about? and for another ( Read more... )

One Day, at the railroad station ( Read more... )

it's so heartbreaking. how people have so much pain inside of them, and how it gets misdirected to people who dont deserve it. it seems like its never going to end. because there are so many stories of beauty and trust and falling in love, but then the pain it changes everything, and the person (you think?) you care for has to take all this shit. ( Read more... )

"I go through all this ( Read more... )

i figured it's about time i write here. i guess because i got into a conversations last night, during which many things became clearer, and i realized that i need to talk more; be more expressive. recently i've been dulling down my personality, because i'm deathly afraid of people thinking i'm annoying or an airhead. and it seems so obvious now! ( Read more... )

today has felt a bit gloomy, it's been drizzly and my brother is bothering me, it seems like whenever he's happy he gets annoyed that other people arent happy too. so maybe it's better just to pretend to be happy, so then at least he'll still be content. my pictures will be ready later today (!!!!!!) so i guess this day will be more kind then ( Read more... )