long time no update, not like anyone reads this but for ppl who,mite.... well i have me a new bf, yes i know thats like alot.lol his name is matt an hes ....what can i say...fun...im not going to say much more as thay normaly jst turn to shit so, later ill let u all know ( Read more... )

Why do i do this to myself, i mean fuck! ever since i have had a dream and it was so wonderful, i knew it coulnt cum true, but i also had the thought of u can do anything, but u cant! not on ur own,no one can and u fucking ppl wont wake upto urselfs and pull ppl close and help u get nuthing for nuthing and even then u get shit quality! i give up ( Read more... )

Found this on a random search and though everyone SHOULD read this!!!!!! both guys and girls. can be for both ( Read more... )

well, i spose i should let sum of what been happerning out, jst so i can get it of my chest ( Read more... )

STOP PRETANDING U CARE
STOP HURTING ME!!
CARE FOR ME LIKE I CARE FOR U AND LOVE U
FUK WHY DO I HUST SO MUCH
I M SO FUCKED UP AND U DONT HELP ME I JST WANT A FRIEND
I HATE SO MUCH OF U

*sigh*
oh u know how it is

Ok get this! jst wen i was getting use to the fact dad wasnt cuming home..he fucking cums home..i fucking hate him so much he fuckin cheated on mum with the lil slut and now she forgives him well i m not so easrly forgiving! i cant belive he is here i m never going to talk to him wish ne never came home...i m soo confused...jst want to leave...... ( Read more... )

well i think i shoudl update let this great wrold of no friends know what is goin on in my life.....my perants are getting devorced dad moved out on wendsday to life with it fuking slut of a gf who he cheated on mum with...well yeah didnt think it woudl fuk me up as much as it is !! oh well
who cares! not u i know that for a fact
so fuk u

So now i turn to my display pic,"Would you notice?" and i think how many of u really do notice me? I m tired of loving u ppl and i m sure you all love me back but its jst to hard wen ur so far away, i want you to be near i want you here with me i need to feel safe again, i want someone behind me making me stand tall and telling me i can do it. i m ( Read more... )

U know what! FUCK THIS.......really why do i care? no one cares about me? i run and drop everything for u ppl and i get sweet fuk all in return! i m trying to live my life and trying to be happy but its all to fuking depressing to much of my life relies on love and i get nun!its all good u say u love me and care but its not the words its the doing ( Read more... )