well, i was officially forced to reside with my parents. i went to what i thought was a "normal" doctors appt. and she called my mom saying that i had to go back into the hospital for e.d. so, i am here at my parents..and i absolutely hate it!

hey. haven't written in here in a really long time. simply just have not the motivation, nor the time. things are kind of tough right-both ed wise and depression wise. i feel like i have lost my entire identity by working so much. i know that a full time job means you do have to work a lot, but when you are a nurse-you work extra long. just not ( Read more... )

dealing with a lot of stuff right now. i am plain tired. every day is a fight, but a fight worth fighting. i am working like 50+ hours a week and i have absolutely no social life or free time for myself. it wears ya down quite honestly. trying hard to fight the depression part of things and sometimes i just have to live second by second.

well-have three weeks of work under my belt. it has been a huge challenge to get up each morning and put myself in a position that i feel amazingly vulnerable in. i just feel so incredibly stupid right now-most intelligence wise. i think my brain is going to blow up-seriously-from all this new information that has been forced into my little head. ( Read more... )

wow. i haven't written in my journal for a long time....been busy and what not ( Read more... )

another sunday-another day...i should really get my butt out of my apartment today to do something..plus i should really clean this place up. you know-a liitle spring cleaning!! went home yesterday for aunt priscilla's 90th birthday party. lets just say that it was quite the party..i never realized how many weird people are in my family. i hung out ( Read more... )

i got the job at porter memorial. i have to get a physical done etc. hopefully everything will be okay! orientation doesn't begin till the 28th of march, so i have plenty of time to worry....lucky me. well, my roommate is sleeping-she worked midnights last night and will spend the entire day sleeping. it is hard sometimes to stay quiet during the ( Read more... )

i hate snow. when is it ever going to stop snowing?!? this seems like one of the longest winters. can't wait for stupid spring to get here. i feel so grumpy today. feeling confused and every other feeling word you can find in the feeling word dictionary. i am waiting for the nurse recruiter to call from porter memorial. they have to get all their ( Read more... )

okay...........so today was kind of a long day ( Read more... )

accepted a job yesterday at porter memorial hospital. i will be working on the orthopedic/neurology floor. it appears as though the floor is put together well. people with infections or other contagious diseases are not allowed on the floor-so that eliminates a lot of infections for the patients that have undergone hip/knee/back surgeries. it is ( Read more... )