So, the one thing is hate most....is knowing or semi-thinking that i know that i have a friend who is in need of help (any kind of help) and i can't do jack shit to make it better ( Read more... )

i've always had this way about me ( Read more... )

so, i took a mini vacation....i found myself in a semi safe haven. a part of me really likes that i can't be contacted through phone. another part of me hates it. i feel free in a way. i have missed it. well...i guess i can't avoid everyone forever. but i just dont feel like dealing with anyone. i wrote to sabina. and i am about to write to summer ( Read more... )

So...my phone is retarded. Summer is finally talking to me again. WEll, like we used to talk. It's good. It makes me happy. I smaile with every message i get. i miss her...thats all. work sucks!! always working all the fuckin time!! but i get paid well, so it is ok. cat has been pissing people off left and right. everyone runs to me for advice... ( Read more... )

i found out where my sadness is coming from....it's summer.

...and thats all i have to say on that....

So, yea....If nuns weren't so religious and all that jazz. Or whatever. Like if nuns ould have crushes on whichever sex they choose, but dont have sex.....then I could be a nun. I'm not meant to find a lover. The Past keeps reminding me that that shit is just no fucking good. You get screwed over in one way or another. I dont know how else to say ( Read more... )

Yay! I can't help but smile :) everything is great these days. i'm so so happy :D I don't really know what has come over me. Well, I do know what has come over me, but I dont know how to describe it. It is an awesome feeling of love. And I dont mean a sexual love in any way, shape or form. I mean a love of appreciation and friendship. Like a best ( Read more... )

i dont really know how i feel about anything or anyone....

....not as of rightnow. people are strange. if you thought you knew...you dont

ok, so come january i will be going home to scotland for a week :) yay!!! and then 1st feb to 15th feb i will be in slovakia. yay!! i am so fucking excited. we are going to have so much fun. i'm trying my best to learn the language. but it is hard. it will be easier when i can hear it more and not just on the phone :) everyday i look forward to ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm holding onto many dreams. I feel like everything I thought was good, is actually bad. Nothing is what it seems. Everything is different now. I don't really know how to explain it. I feel like it's time to leave. I really mean it too. I think my time here is complete. I love all the lessons I have learned. I love that I have met so ( Read more... )