sarah reminded me i had this thing, i never really use it or anything anymore. =)

too much has happened to do a real update.

i have a new boyfriend.
his name is josh.
its been like a month and a half.
he's a sweetheart.
drama started with nik last night.
because he's a slut,
and i like his new girlfriend
so i informed her.
bad idea.
now he is talking ( Read more... )

So I'm pretty sure I'm moved on. I like the words of this song.. "My So Called Life" by JamisonParker.

"I spend my nights dead facedown on my floor, but the drugs aren't really working anymore. The nights are mostly just depressed from starin at my open chest. I'm bleeding and I'm heartless, but I'm yours. And I'm scratching down every blurry scene ( Read more... )

you know it will always be just me.

im lost in whatever this fucking emotion is. cuz ive been there for the past 2 months, it is hard to describe. im glad i am THIS easy to throw away. im glad a little fucking girl can bring you more happiness than i ever did. i am soooo glad that you are "in love with me" but she "makes you happy". i give up.

[[Did you know when you gave up on me that Id be here on my knees? Need to get this off my chest, Choking back tears to hold onto my fragile state of mind. Did I need this betrayal spelled out? I can be easily replaced. Words on the tip of my tongue, I've been begging to come out and play. Loss of feeling, Neurotic misplacement of emotion. Paranoia ( Read more... )

i love life.
i love flirting. it is fun as fuckkk.
loooove it.
boys rock.

So... I only update like every once in awhile ( Read more... )

he's still the only one.

the most amazing person.

with one word, he can make me fall
in love
all over again.

and i forgive him for everything,
with his smile.

and i realize that this is pathetic.
but tonight im going to go to bed
with a smile on.
because he is just that damn good
at what he does to me.

<3nlf

weekend...success ( Read more... )

"never will i give up trying
cuz you're everything to me.
i hope its something worth the waiting
its the only time that i ever feel real."

nicholas lee fortson<3 ( Read more... )

it really isnt as bad as it seems ( Read more... )