Brrr. Its freezing. Im back at school. So far today Ive had

1 slim fast optima shake 180 cal
all my vitamins!!

yay im doing good. Im going to do my crunches and pilates since I cant go run cause of the snow.

*thinkin thin*
**NOTHING tastes as good as THIN feels**

I got my script for xanax and some other benzo...now im on 3. im such a jew

Today when I weighed myself I am 116lbs. Tomarrow I hope to be 115lbs. maybe I can keep up this pound a day thing. oh well going to hop on the treadmill.

Im such a piece of shit. I binged and than I purged. I hate myself. I really really hate myself ( Read more... )

ok i had lunch ( Read more... )

Today is going well, its snowing like mad outside so I figured there is nothing to do but update again.
I was on the treadmill for 45 min. It said I burned 256 cal. I doubt it was really that much. I know all those machines are different but oh well. OK than I did 150 crunches. Aghh it's 2pm. Im going to make something for lunch. Ugh

Ok well Im happy that yesterday I managed to stay under my calorie limit ( Read more... )

Fuck. I was laying in bed. Lacking self control. I had a craving. I caved. Luckily I still havent gone over my 400 cal.

so before I had 265 total cal. Now I have 375 total cal.

I feel like a fat pig. I should go to bed before I eat myself to death.

Goodnight........xo

Im not sure what Im feeling right now. I am afraid I think. I never told anyone the truth. I do not even write it down anymore. But I feel like I need to start because I am going crazy because I cant let it out ( Read more... )