ugh. i am in a bad mood. my bf asked me to go to a bbq for one his friends. i said sure. turns out no one else we know is going. this is just going to suck. i hate going to parties where i dont know anyone at all. my bf is quiet and does not talk to other people, he hardly even talks to me. so pretty much i will be sitting there like a lump-and so ( Read more... )

i am addicted to shopping.. but only for work clothes. on the weekend i bum around like the biggest slob ever. yoga pants tank tops and too short hoodies. today i bought this really cute shirt from ann taylor...and j.jill. i need some more work pants though but am picky and not many are that comfortable. i think i am gonna go iron my clothes for ( Read more... )

i got my reject letter from grad school today..and i need to babysit for this couple in 1.5 hrs..i am full of anxiety and stress and dont know how the hell i am going to pull it off. my stomach hurts, my head hurts, and i just feel depressed. no where to go, nothing to do. my life just keeps getting worse.

update, i applied to grad school- master of social work.. i hope i get in. i am sorta worried because deadlines have already passed and they still have not cashed my check. i am going to call during my lunch on tuesday to see if they have received my package. if not, i dont know what i will do. i sent another envelope to boston for my health ( Read more... )

i feel so empty inside. and alone. i dont know what to do with myself anymore.

My head is filled with disease.
My skin is begging you please.
I'm on my hands and knees
I want so much to believe.
- nin

no friends. no family. what else is left for me on this planet?

i give up. i need to move. i don't trust anyone anymore. people are so fucking fake.

applying for jobs seems sooo useless. i sit at the comp for hrs at a time and apply for everything and anything, and then never even get a call back. i have a job, and it's still tough. i can't even imagine NOT having a job and doing this. that is prob why i am applying....i feel like i have no job security. i needdddd to go back to school. i could ( Read more... )

all i want is for things to be like how they used to be. i miss all my friends. what can i do about this?
does anyone want to hang out?
it's hard because we live so far away.....but i need to make this work.
i am slowly dying here. i feel like i have no meaning in life.

i really, really need a part time job. i need a new coche.

i hate being sick!!! who doesn't. coughs are very annoying.