bye LB!

so i've given myself a clean sweep and a swift kick. apartment: clean! library books: renewed! hair and beard: neat and trimmed! mind: well... better than it's been ( Read more... )

i just hate this. i hate how distracted and fragmented i feel right now. nothing is wrong, nothing is bad. but i'm just... blech. i'm tired of this thesis. i don't even want to look at it or think about it again. it feels like a paper prison. i hate writing this kind of stuff. i put too much pressure on myself to be so perfect. it makes me ( Read more... )

me+mike+carl=3 bedroom apartment
3 bedroom apartment=cheap rent, roomy, super-cheap utilities, tons of space, more options for affordable spaces.

i'm in a weird place. i think a big part of it is that i have more ideas than energy or motivation. it's like my mind is going too fast for my resolve to catch up. i'm experimenting in several things right now, but sometimes i feel like they are distractions. i've never been in a place where the path has been this clear. all i have to do is ( Read more... )

i my morning and early afternoon today filling in for the rec therapist at the psychiatric hospital i work for. sunday is bowling group. it's not my favorite group to run. often times, i spend the majority of the group feverishly resetting the pins while hastily scratching down the various scores of the group members. mind you, i am a therapist ( Read more... )

one thing that has always interested me is the concept of a utopia. in most cases, utopias are pipe dreams, ideologies that cannot take shape in the fabric of a real-life social structure. but i believe that for a brief period, a small, modest utopian society did exist. it was developed during the infancy of the internet ( Read more... )

323. 4. wow.

i love you more than i love you.

pigment: thought, emotion, charge, feeling, particles, disorganized, dust, color, impulse ( Read more... )

i have a lot of things to write, but a few environments of thought have superceded them all today. i developed the perfect metaphor for my relationship with painting and drawing. it must be written down before it leaves me. before it evaporates ( Read more... )