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[dzzyjzzy]

north carolina is intense. & intense definitely isn't always a good thing

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[dcsleepsalone5]

for some reason it took me this entry to realize that you haven't really been around much. your life has always seemed to be pretty crazy, and it sounds like you've really been through a lot lately. my shit's been pretty fucked lately too and i've found myself returning to LJ as well..haha. maybe we can be buddies? we're on literal opposite sides of the nation, so maybe it will be easy to not be afraid to talk about shit. or something.
anyways, i hope you feel better/are doing better. good luck.
<3
joseph

[dzzyjzzy]

yay! buddies are always nice. do you have myspace? it's easier to talk on there. mine's www.myspace/dzzyjzzy if you want to add me. ♥

[derrickwest]

I don't think you need to "fix" yourself at all. Whenever I see you, you always seem to have a pretty level head. Take consolation in the fact that not a lot of people could take your situation without talking about it. It's not complaining.

A year doesn't seem that long (to me) to try and find someone comparable to someone you once loved. I can totally relate to your situation in that sense. When I walk around wherever, not even the most blow your mind, bombshell, huge tittied, nicest ass girl even compares to Liz in my mind for some reason. I know what it's like to think, "well, she's hot, but she's no Liz". Love is a funny thing, it doesn't go away even if you want it to.

[dzzyjzzy]

love is a funny thing. & i guess it is slightly okay to compare them to future prospects. it helps eliminate a waste of time.

so where is this house?!

[derrickwest]

...i hope she doesn't read that.

[its_frkn_jenna]

Jessica, derrick is right, a year isnt that long at all. And you may never get over matt. And i think thats just fine. He was your true love and you lost him tragically in a way that most people will enver experience in their entire life. Its okay to need to talk to people and be upset and mourn. In fact you need to. Im so sorry for your loss and i hope you are doing alright. If you ever need anything, im here. Take care Jessica.

[dzzyjzzy]

thank you, jenna. it's nice to have some one who doesn't know exactly how things were, to be able to see it that way.

[fashion_scars]

its been 10 months and you still havent taken any time for yourself jessica. something horrible happened too you that i couldnt even imagine happening too myself and you deserve to take sometime too yourself and be selfish and talk about it as much as you want with whoever you feel comfortable talking too. and if people think its a problem to talk to you about it and shit then fuck them. i hope yo come home soon.