i have recently figured out that im not quite the person i thought i was. sexually im pretty, whatever, you know. like it doesn't bother me when i hear about couples having threesomes and stuff, woo for them. but i've had would be wild experiences. and i thought hey that'd be cool and hey that'd be an interesting birthday gift too and i've done it ( Read more... )

i woke up and my clock was wrong, i htae you daylights savings. i also looked like crap but had aboslutly no motivation to do anything about it. i also woke up exactly when the food service closed so i had no way to get food without spending money i really didn't have. plus i have to study for a test tomrrow, which is worth like a fourth of my ( Read more... )

such an interesting concept, so hard to explain, so complicated. yet so compleatly elemental in nature. it's there or it's not. throughout the past few years i've run around, crushing, obsessing, thinking myself in love, maybe even declairing it so. once i was right, but it was so compleatly one sided that it was a painful, lonely sort of love. i ( Read more... )

Everything There is To Know About YouBasicsFirst Name:Elizabeth Middle Name:Xiao Pin Nickname(s):Riz Birthday:12/11/86 Where You Were Born:ames, iowa Zodiac Sign:sag Chinese Zodiac Sign:tiger Height:5'2" Eye Color:dark brown Hair Color:dark brown/bleached Shoe Size:6-7.5 Ring Size:6-8 School:UIowa Grade:Freshman GPA:2.something Siblings:two ( Read more... )

EXTREMELY LONG SURVEY for those bored people out there!The BasicsFirst Name::Liz Middle Name::Xiao Pin Last Initial::W Age::19 Date of Birth::12/11/86 Place of Birth::ames, iowa Current Location::chicago, illinois Hair Color::dark brown/bleached Eye Color::dark brown Height::5'2" Weight::120 Piercings::7 Tattoos::2 Smoke?::rarely Drink?::sometimes ( Read more... )

there is something inherently wrong with me, i am 100% sure. i have always wanted a boyfriend, someone to be there for me, to care about me, to give me a hug if i'm sad. and i have one. i have an exellent boyfriend, he's one of the coolest people i know. he gives me hugs, he thinks i'm beautiful and funny and sweet. i really could not ask for ( Read more... )

im giddy like a middle school girl with her first boyfriend. ok so it's not my first boyfriend but it feels like it. i don't know what's going on but it feels like something is finally working right. he's sweet and understanding and i love being around him. i just can't shake the feeling that its all going to crash and burn. i'm so not used to ( Read more... )

jace moved back to ames two nights ago! or close to when i had my dream. WEIRD. bye bastard! *dusts off hands*

that BASTARD. i finally have the guts to chuck him out of my life, and he worms his way into my self conscience. that's not fair, how am i supposed to get rid of him from there!! i don't even know what's going on in there. except this obsession, apparently. so in this dream we were driving around, actually i think we were going somewhere, or coming ( Read more... )

so i've kind of had a thought as to why it's so hard for me to date. all the examples of love/dating/relationships in my immidiate life are pretty strong examples. first off, my parents. after they met in hong kong, my dad came to america to go to school. and instead of going "well that was fun, moving on", my mom uprooted her entire life and came ( Read more... )