Im so proud of my lifestyle. I smoke, I drink and Im not a whore. At least I know that people like me for who I am and I have the best friends in the world. yesterday I went to the Mets game with Susie, Shelly, Anthony and ron! I had so much fun and I actually enjoyed the game. They def made me feel like It is alright to just be myself and I ( Read more... )

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I am falling more and more in love with him everyday. I dont know how its possible. We never talk except occasionally exchaning Hi's and smiles in the hallway. Today I saw him, We had the same shirt on again. I wanted to say hi or do something but like always I put my head down like im afraid to show my face. Somehow one day i can not think of him ( Read more... )

Ok im really fed up with this shit. After i wrote the last one i didnt realize all the things I didnt say. Michelle- If your gonna be mad like this then be mad but first at least try to talk to me before you say i just left. The entire ride home you ignored me, Do you know how uncomportable that feels? Thats why i left, If you tried to talk to me I ( Read more... )

Im finally home.... Thank God! Now i can sleep a entire night in my own bed, I dicided that im not gonna go to school tomorrow. I have a lot of homework that i didnt finish and one more day wont hurt me that bad. I have a lot of plans for these weeks coming up. Next weekend Im going to the cuse and then after that Im thinking about having a ( Read more... )

Well im in florida... not having the best time. I kinda wish i was in New york but i dont really know. The entire trip ive been thinking about what to do when i get home. I dont know what to do about the whole friends situation, I really dont wanna fight with anyone but I have a feeling we will be... Oh well. Nothing i can do now. I think im gonna ( Read more... )

Well im in South Carolina with Michelle and Its ok eventhough she is mean to me. Im actually really glad that i missed the party at Shellys tonihgt. We arent talking that much now since she never cares about how i feel but that is a totally different story. If I wasnt here I would be there prob drunk up in her room crying over him. lol. Or the ( Read more... )

I havent written in here in a long time. Anyway . I went to Taste of Choas (So fucking amazing.) Im still sick from it though, I stood outside in the cold from 11am to after 12 am. But I met Gerard which made me the happiest person alive. So happy. It was absolutely amazing. The show was great although it wasnt long enough at all. I got sick like ( Read more... )

I hate today. I woke up this morning knowing that it was going to suck and that is exactly what it did ( Read more... )

Last night for one of the first times, I saw Sucide as a real option. I cant belive I got to that point. I sat in my room for about 20 mins holding my razor and the putting it to my wrist then moving it away. Today isnt any better and I sort of wish I had gotten it over with last night. Im so scared because I never felt like that would solve ( Read more... )