sorry about yesterday. i got caught up in writing emails i didn't have time to update. anyways my life as of last week. school ends tommorro so that's good (i think) i won't see any of my school friends till september. bummer. but life is not all bad. i got into concert choir(ausome) and i lettered in drama and choir. also i've met a new person ( Read more... )

sorry all don't have time to post today. will post tommorro. much to post about too. please tune in...
live long prosper and may the force be with you.

stars are big balls of gas burning millions of mile away. *sigh* well i'm bummed. well technically i'm not bummed. but my friend is. don't know quiet why only that she is. okay heres how it went. i'm coming from lunch today and i see ashley, good friend of mine. she didn't look in the best of moods so i walked with her for a while. you know for ( Read more... )

well went to see star wars on sat. was awesome! i'm not ashamed to say that i cried when the jedi were turned on by the clone troopers. it was really sad...and the music didn't help. but the battle between yoda and the emperor was cool! i'm worried about me. i was sitting in english today and my friend asked me about rachael, asked about whether i ( Read more... )

why the hell am i so miserable? what did i do to deserve this? i've been a good person haven't i? haven't i helped people whenever i could? so then why the hell does god hate me? *sigh* i just want to be loved by someone. i just want one person to say that i mean something to them. just one single solitary person. just a simple sentence. i care ( Read more... )

i'm depressed and i don't know why. i try to think but everything seems to elude me. i had an amazing awakening today. *sarcastic happiness* i have a "friend" at school. i say "friend" because she thinks she is but she's not. i'm too nice to tell her this. anyways she always comes and talks with me everyday in the morning at exactly the same time. ( Read more... )

after reading rachael's post about her poems i figured i'd through in one of my own. this is one i wrote a while ago and found four minuets ago. enjoy ( Read more... )

sorry all for not posting yesterday. i had a job interview and didn't have time to post. but here's the next installment ( Read more... )

i'm worried about rachael. i didn't call her on wednsday and i deserve to be shot for that. *hits head* bad josh! bad josh! so then i call her last night around 8:00ish, our clock said 8:30 but i don't think that's right. any way her mom picked up and i found out she wasn't home. she asked if she could take a message and i asked her to tell rachael ( Read more... )

why in god's name are we all so intent on perfection? why do we insist that everyone eldse we know also be perfect? isn't life hard enough without having to live up to impossible expectations of ourselves and others. rachael was all depressed today because she botched an audition. she got down on herself so hard that to be truthfull had she been ( Read more... )