I had a dream. I was in history class taking a test, whispering answers to some girl to my left when I looked over to the far left and who is sitting in a chill, brown, rocking chair in her pink polo shirt and a skull cap, just waiting for me to notice her? Ronnisha. So I stopped mid-sentence and said slowly, unbelieving, "Ronnisha?" And I ran over ( Read more... )

"It's time for a haircut." says the lonely girl. She thinks that maybe if her hair looks nicer it will make her feel happier ( Read more... )

I don't like the word 'obviously'. Each person has a different perspective of what an "obvious" or apparent action is, every person has a different view of objects and their relations to other objects... there is a quote by Anais Nin--"We do not see things as THEY are, we see them as WE are." So what is "common sense" to one person is not-so-common ( Read more... )

"We can dance if you want to ( Read more... )

Mean what you say, and say what you mean, how fucking hard is that? Huh? Just tell the fucking truth, it's far less painful then leading on a lie.

Well, I just returned from Rodney Davis' funeral. I am disappointed that I didn't get to talk to Erica. She read a poem that was like a letter to her dad, it made tears stream down my face. She's really suffering, really sad. I wish I could be there right now! I just want to give her a hug and console her.

I'm feeling better then I was earlier in ( Read more... )

Oh, what have I done?

Cryptic messages mess up my brain and I don't know what to do when someone says that I mean a different thing each night of the week. I swear I'm not having mood swings, I just... I'm just confused.

In other news: my tummy hurts. :(

I should have known. Life isn't black and white, neither is college admissions. I have been neither rejected, nor accepted. But DEFERRED to regular decision. What am I to do? I feel as though I've lost all hope. Where the hell am I supposed to go. A couple posts back I talked about my inabliity to just stick with one, fall in love so deeply that ( Read more... )

They aren't pretending, these people really love me! They do! I almost can't grasp it! I sent e-mails to my instructors this summer and within an hour each of them responded with much appreciated positivity! I'm just so excited to hear if I get in to Bryn Mawr. It's amazing, the kindness I have found at Bryn Mawr. Everyone has potential, I have ( Read more... )

At the GLCC. Aww, my mom and I went to the GLCC for family night and everyone was happy and eating and silly and... it was nice. My mom nearly cried afterwards because she realized how wonderful of a place it is and how much everyone really is like family. We don't have a "real" family anymore. That's why I love going there so much, it is an ( Read more... )