I had the best dream this morning. Tim from Justified was showing me his tie collection and then I look down and he has my foot tied to the chair. That was all the hint I needed. Then fast forward to him tying me to the bed with his ties. Just as he finished tying the last knot, Ryder came and jumped on our bed. Uggh. Kids always have the worst

Last night Tyler and I had few drinks out on the patio and we ended up talking about things from our past that needed some clearing up. I would avoid such topics since a lot of the time I just didn't want to know the answer. I didn't want to know if Tyler slept with someone else while we weren't together when I was pregnant with Ryder. I didn't ( Read more... )

After having my first fire department and ER experience, I am impressed with people who choose to help others, even when they have blood pouring out of them. I can't handle blood at all, and people who can are superheros to me ( Read more... )

I should be sleeping, but instead I am thinking. I have been thinking a lot about marriage lately. Probably because everyone keeps asking or telling us that we should tie the knot. I want to someday, but it's a big step. What if it changes everything or ruins a good thing? I don't think it would, because we can make it through a big life ( Read more... )

So I guess it's been awhile ( Read more... )

i wish i could go back and tell young ashley that she has no reason to be a whiny bitch. i was an idiot ( Read more... )

i have spent naptime reading my very first journal entries on this journal. i am currently saving them to my computer, so i can revise them into a book. haha, just kidding [kind of. obviously the thought did cross my mind.] the ashley 9 years ago was a goof. she was against the smoking of anything. she was against the drinking of alcohol. she was ( Read more... )

this is my 5th day of not smoking. apparently if you are a moderate smoker the nicotine withdrawal really sucks. ha. the first three days of not smoking my digestive tract freaked out causing a ton of pain and cramping. thankfully that didn't happen again yesterday, but yesterday the crankiness and intense cravings kicked in. my chest has also been ( Read more... )

The only two alocholic beverages I can drink without wanting to vomit are wine and Jameson. I have drank my full capacity of rum and vodka and gin and beer and schnapps of all kinds. This makes me sad. Jameson might be the next to go. The other night I got super drunk drinking Jameson and I blame Tyler. He bought a bottle and we drank the whole ( Read more... )

Somedays I sit around and wonder 'Am I a MILF?'

Fuck yeah I am!