My post this morning that I never posted ( Read more... )

A part of me gets really jealous when I see people have normal deliveries of babies. I hate that. I am tempted to find a doctor who will do a vbac for the next one, but I don't want to labor forever only to have a c-section again. I don't know. Aparently I wasn't made to deliver babies naturally.

The other night I told Tyler that for April Fool's I was going to show him my old pregnancy test (Yes, I kept it. No, I am not sure why.) and tell him that I was pregnant again. He said that would have been so mean, because he would have been excited to have another baby. I was not the response I thought I was going to get, and it made me really ( Read more... )

Tonight was the first time I texted Tyler to see where he was after work in ages. He usually texts me to let me know. Well, I guess I shoiuld be thankful for him always letting me know and that this was the first time in ages I had to ask him, but I am really quite irritated about it. Maybe it's because I am beyond tired and I look forward to him ( Read more... )

What a crazy couple of weeks. I packed our whole apartment, moved, and unpacked. Got new furniture. Got organized. Threw shit awsy. Gave shit away. Decorated. Created. There are a few things to do still as far as decorating, but I need more money first ( Read more... )

My child had his favorite stuffed friend, Chewbacca and then when I went in there again Chewy was sitting there in the row that all of his other friend are, like he was never playing with him. Apparently Ryder can already put his toys away ( Read more... )

The last few weeks have been really good with Tyler and I. He finally got it. Or something. He surprised me a lot with small and big things. Like a Nook and ice cream. He was really affectionate and caring. It was great. We have been really happy. Then today I feel like I (we) took a giant leap backwards ( Read more... )

Tonight Tyler and I got the cops called on us. We were playing an updated version of the penis game on the balcony. Apparently people don't like it when you yell the word fuck as loud as you can. Tyler totally won and I don't have much of a voice left. It was obviously Tyler's idea, but admittedly, it was pretty fun. Immature and inconsiderate, but ( Read more... )

i'm really excited for march. we will finally have our own place. i can start decorating our kitchen, living room and Ryder's room. we are getting a huge tax return, which means that we can actually get a couch and a kitchen table and hopefully a crib and a changing table. i am starting to teach Ryder some sign language, and it's going to be really ( Read more... )

I woke up with a small cold, so now I am drinking screwdrivers hoping that the combo of alcohol and vitamin c makes me feel better ( Read more... )