i wish my life had value ( Read more... )

lately he doesnt seem interested in talkin to me...at all.

i guess i'll just leave him alone n stop buggin him.

in other shit, i've been miserable lately...dunno why...ok well i sort of know why....and it sucks. live prolly couldn't possibly suck more than it does now. all i wanna do is stay in my bed....all day long. i wish i could do that.

im so very mad at myself today

so maybe it was something i did a long time ago ( Read more... )

so...now does this mean i have some shit to not look forward to? in his blog...it was "what if i am"...."what if im not" a simple no....would have solved both sides...but didn't seem to be the case...so now what does that tell me????

entry # 11
feb. 24

I really wish tim was here. Im sick of always feeling lonely, and b/c of it, I take that out on him cuz I get scared...hes the only thing that makes me happy, so if I end up losing him, wheres that gonna leave me? I do believe him...cuz if I have doubts, when I talk to him, n he mentions things....just li'l things that he ( Read more... )

i did it again ( Read more... )

I haven't talked to Travis in 2 days....thank god lol. Im not mean, and I don't know how to be cuz Im not purdy er nuthin so I don't have this problem where I have to turn down guys all the time...er ever fer that matter. I hadda explain to travis what was goin on. I like travis, and I didn't wanna say something wrong where he'd get pissed off and ( Read more... )

i love when he calls me in tha morning. i dun mind him wakin me up neithers. Im happy his voice is the first voice i getta hear. Im glad he called me this mornin cuz he called around 10 an i was still dead asleep n if he hadn't called, i would've prolly slept til noon er 1 lol. i love him. hes sooo soo cute with his li'l ways ( Read more... )

i should never talk to him about tim. now i have to question if he really even did break up with her? am i just gonna be played again? i use to believe that you really shouldn't believe the shit ppl tell you....but they were right last time, so god knows. im even more confused. i feel more shitty now than i ever ever have. gawd....and i don't even ( Read more... )