Should I start like a video diary on youtube? I've thought about it, but never really went through with doing it. I've had a few ideas to go with, but I'm not sure what to do. Give me some feedback.

I'm tired of feeling ugly.

I have a plan now. And it is beautiful.

Well I had a weird sleeping schedule this weekend. I slept all day Friday, literally. I slept 20 hours and couldn't wake up. I tried and James tried. James was getting pissed off at me. It made me mad, but I was too tired to do anything about it. I then couldn't get back to sleep till 18 hours after I woke up. It was odd. I was then awake ( Read more... )

I feel all this pressure of trying to go to classes this morning. I know I shouldn't skip the first day. I have to go to the first SAS class or I'll be kicked out of school this semester. Dammit. This semester is a pass with B's or better or no more school for you. I'm so fucked on the shit. It's not cool at all. I'm not sure what to do. I ( Read more... )

I can't get a loan So I can afford the classes, but I won't have enough money for books, or gas. So I guess I'm probably going to have to just drop out. Then I'm going to either be stuck at a Wal*Mart job, or suffocate myself with a Wal*Mart bag.

From now until the end of 2010, I will be engulfed in school even in he summer times. God help me. I'm going to die! Prayers are accepted. Also money. And um,... sex sounds good if you aren't fugly.

I want to explain how I feel. But I don't know how to describe it. All I can think about is killing myself. Just different ways. Like just snapping one day and running in there. Grabbing the gun and splash my brain matter across the bedroom. Or something. Bluh. I want to be fixed, I just don't know how. I have been snapping at people a lot

I'm sick and I need to study. I can't talk because my throat burns, but there's nothing for me to cough up. Hopefully that's nothing bad. I can't afford to get "need to go to the doctor" sick.

How come some of these really popular porn sites have hot guys who need to: (1) shave something, (2)have a funky looking penis, and/or (3)the one topping should be the bottom? It's like the top has the nicest ass you'd want to see get plowed, but he's the one fucking some no-ass-a-tol guy. What's up with that ( Read more... )