i told eyerybody that called me tonite , they called me to come over and play cards .. like they always do , assuming that i had money..i told them that i quit drinking .. well i told them that for this girl i will quit completely , told them that i'd quit them if they didn't respect that .. and i was laughed at..LAUGHED AT.....i love my friends ( Read more... )

so this journal has become my new best friend ... i don't have to use a pen no more , and i have actually been able to write lately.. i usually write every-fucking-thing in here ,, well now i'm gonna write more ( Read more... )

should i have just kept my silence ..should i have just pretended that i was whole ..should i have just gone away and not looked back..should i have just let her rest in peices..should i not have scratched these scabs ..am i even anybody..i'm not even someone worthy of giving these altematums..who am i to tell you it's this or that but . one of ( Read more... )

SIMPLE PLAN LYRICS ( Read more... )

ok so lets talk about the key to my heart and what it means to me.. do you remember what it meant when you first put it on .. it meant that you were mine .. that you held the key to my heartthat you were the one i loved , and thats why you had the privilage to wear it. it wasn't to be taken for granted..now lets talk about what it meant when you ( Read more... )

i don't wanna be here anymore..all i have to look forward to is seeing char , on the rare occasion that i do see her..i havent seen my family in way to long ..i've never felt so alone in my whole life..i can't do this being alone thing , i need someone to be with me .. to want to be with me...i need that someone to be char .. sweet char .. the love ( Read more... )

so today went pretty fuking well , i went to court,and i got all the charges dropped..wich was way cool ,like almost as cool as vagina..umm yea maybe not that cool..but i borrowed a nice dress shirt and tie from kevo..i totally looked wiked hot *nudge nudge*..i kinda think my lawyer was coming on to me.. but whatever..o yea so i walked in there , ( Read more... )

"The Song of Reconciliation ( Read more... )

tumbling falling losing control, breath...slipping sliding tearing breaking, breath....you see there's this cold spot on my bed at night ..and it's fridgid air is creeping up my spine,goosbumps and teardrops..i'm stuck to my shirt...i know i'm loved from to far away,i know i can't everything i want but how much can i take..tonite i wanna trash talk ( Read more... )

So the dream that broke the camels back was last night , less of A dream and more like a string of the most deppressing suicidal dreams I’ve ever had…the first part I remember was we were at maw’s house and it was all good like nothing changed , and the next thing I know I’m hugging her and she kisses me on the cheek and says that she loves me ( Read more... )