So.. it has been forever since I have used this.  i might as well write my feelings down somewhere and maybe an old friend will notice and i will have someone to talk to ( Read more... )

light is an energy of sorts. its great when it comes from the sun. perhaps. that is good. but then again. the dark is also energy. me i prefer neither. rather i enjoy both. perhaps because i can see the light that i enjoy the darkness. or maybe i can see the dark that i enjoy the lightness? i dunno. all i know is that around the bend, i ( Read more... )

so, i don't usually write in this anymore ( Read more... )

have you ever had one of those days where you could just not stop being sad? where everything you did, everything said just upset you? i used to be like this all the time till i met jamie. then i could not stop smiling. and then the world was always right. everything just seemed to fit into place. and now that i am 3000+ miles away from her i ( Read more... )

thoughts of a man. thoughts of a boy. thoughts of a stranger. tonight i write. i write as a man who can not get any sleep. ack.. i feel like i am such a let down to the world. i am a let down to everyone i ever knew. to everyone i know. i can't help but think this. im not sure why, but i just can't help it. i mean i ( Read more... )

(the sounds of a cell phone going off) hello. its jamie. (:. she is running two hours earlier than she thought she would be. wonderful. hurridly i pack all of my things, making sure that i grab "the ring." i slip it into my coat pocket. hopefully one she won't look in. i know jamie loves to look in pockets and my wallet. hopefully she won ( Read more... )

so.. i get to see jamie soon :-D. i am extremely excited about that. (notice the song?) everytime i hear it, i think of jamie. such a wonderful girl. so. i have such a wonderful present for her. and i know she is just going to love it to death. in fact. i know she is giong to kiss me too (:. and i am definately looking forward to that. ( Read more... )

you have three days. three days of being at home. three days to see over fifty people. and at the same time spend time with a woman you haven't seen in over two months who you will marry one day. on top of thatyou are soon going to san diego. once there you will have no time to do much of anything except work. you must visit your parents and ( Read more... )

i told jamie i would update. so i am updating :-P. this is a response to all of life's questions. like why is it that we don't appreciate what we have till its gone? well that is obvious, how can you know what you have till its not there? how do you know you are lucky to be able to talk till you experience a situation in which you cant? how ( Read more... )

things i missed out on because i was stupid ( Read more... )