Day one of my diet
i lost four pounds this month and i only exercised once .
So i am 59 kilo or 130 pounds i live on salad, gum and water next months goal weight
is 125 pounds.
Wish me luck girls
stay strong

I was pretty nervous to go away for the weekend with my husband and my goal of trying not to worry about calories and such. But somehow we had a truly great weekend. I have been so focused on my body and the gym and work an internship and school that I managed to forget my husband. I forgot his needs and our relationship. We had a great weekend ( Read more... )

Well today I was focused until dinner time. I worked so hard between the gym drinking water and eating right. Then Bam Fucked up. Tomorrow I'm focused and going hard all day. I'm going away this weekend with my husband for a get-away that we need bad. I'm never home as I'm so busy with school work and my internship. It's supposed to be a weekend ( Read more... )

I've decided to start taking phentermine again. I used it a few years back and got great results from it. The only problem is it's pretty expensive and I only have 48 halves left. We'll see how long this lasts. Anyone else use this? Also I've decided to go back to being vegan. Been vegetarian for about 8 years. I need to get down to at least 116 by ( Read more... )

I need some serious support. I have had to get my sodium levels tested twice now because they were low. Well I guess the levels dropped again. And I have to collect urine for 24 hours. Anyone ever had a problem with this? Wondering if it's ed related or just me??? I typically eat just restricted. But I use salt so idk. Any info from experience ( Read more... )

I had a horrible week last week. Between eating way too much and bad as well as skipping gym days and holding knifes to my wrists while I was drunk just wanting to die. But it's a new week. And I'm not gonna get down. I'm going to work my ass off this week get focused and do better.

Here's to a positive week everyone. Love all of you ladies. Xx


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I feel like I'm never gonna get a break. I chose recovery. I chose to try to be normal again. I didn't like the first doctor. Now I have to drive over an hour away to see this other one. The closest one that's accepting patients and takes my insurance. I feel so defeated. Like I'm going to have to try to do this on my own.

At this point I have ( Read more... )

I've been going on this terrible binge for 3 days straight and I can't stop it!!! I've gained 3 pounds and my poor stomach is so bloated it's about to pop! Help! I can't stop!

Well I saw the psychologist yesterday. He put words in my mouth and belittled my marriage. Then expressed how important it was I was on the highest dose of Prozac. Needless to say, I won't be going back. I'm going to see my regular doctor Monday and I'm going to ask to be sent to a new therapist. I had the worst night at work. Someone tried to fire ( Read more... )

Well I had an amazing day!!! I consumed 508 calories and burned 583!!!! Boom!!!!!! Negative net. Most amazing thing!!! God that feels awesome I haven't done that in a long time!! You know how on myfitness pal it tells what you'll weigh in 5 weeks?! Best one yet!!!


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