I don't want to seek revenge on those I actually care about.  Revenge is reserved for those I want to destroy.  Spite is saved for Pokemon.  Lmao too lame.  I'm gonna play pokemon now I think.  Lalalala there goes my best friend.  Nothing new really.  Consequences for everything.  Everyone kept calling me creepy.  New York.  All caught up on my ( Read more... )

I've noticed how every time something happens in my life such as a bad event or troubling time, I start a new journal.  I've been doing this for the past five years, whether it be a paper journal or an online one.  It's as if in the back of my mind I believe that erasing any record of that time will make it actually cease to have happened.  Of ( Read more... )

It's like we constantly tell other people something in an attempt to convince ourselves more than them.  It's always yeah I love my job, oh I'm so happy with my significant other, I love who I am, blahblahblahblah.  The things that need to be constantly defended or reassured are the things that will slowly fall apart.  Of course we do this because ( Read more... )

She said I reminded her of Holden Caulfield, presumably because we were both self-absorbed losers.

I'm tired of being compared to these fictional characters.  And reading that today put the biggest  -_____- face on me.  It seems I'm the star of every new book and movie but I can't find anyone around me that I have so much in common with.  It's a ( Read more... )

1. Love - There is no official guide for falling in love, falling out of love, or dealing with the emotional intricacies of love.  Love cannot be taught and it certainly cannot be forced.

2. Friendship - Some personalities simply click and others clash.  Just like love, friendship is a natural process that cannot be forced.

3. Loss - At some point ( Read more... )

Please ignore this lisp, I never meant to sound like this.
So take me and break me and make me strong like you.
I'll be forever grateful to this and you.
It's only you, beautiful.
Or I don't want anyone.

Blahblahblahblahblah.
My book is coming along quite nicely  :]

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"I trust you to know you would not abandon me."  Truer and falser words have never been spoken.  I like the beat and it's hard to breathe but it seems like that was never enough.  No it's never enough.  All we can do is look back with fondness and realize that not every promise made is meant to be kept.  In the end it it becomes more important to ( Read more... )

It's 3am and once again I am not the least bit sleepy.  This troubling case of semi-insomnia is quite troubling.  Those days when I can't seem to fall asleep until 6am are the worst.  The only time I can fall asleep remotely early is when I have something to look forward to the next day.  I look forward to exploring with Janella tomorrow but sadly ( Read more... )

I had a long ranty entry in mind.  I had way too much to say.  I planned it out in my head while driving around the streets of Miami and nearly dying a few times.  However, it seems the words escape me and everything has become rather meaningless.  I'd like to think I'm the problem, and in some form that may be true.  The simple truth is just that ( Read more... )