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from gilly
1. In relationships: i tend to focus too much on the other person and not both of us equally ( Read more... ) -
innocence
there is a song. there is a boy. there is a world. lying on the beach of some obscure lake, drinking beer listening to this song and crying, over a girl. not regret, but a goodbye. and in a way, a celebratory goodbye, a rejoycing for all that had been had. the trip to the beach that became it's own dressed-down date. the water balloon fight ( Read more... ) -
changes
suddenly i am completely happy with my own person, and i dont know where it came from. maybe it is a process of my own emerging independence. i think it is a combination of things, a pride of being able to take care of myself, though i hate the hassle of organizing and doing taxes and making appointments and changing my cell phone that i have to ( Read more... ) -
lack of updates
so, maybe it is because i feel cynically depressed and full of self-disdain that i dont write. what is there to say? i hate myself? no, not so strong. i dislike myself, and being a fucking psyc major, you would think i would know how to change. maybe its the fact that i secretly dont WANT to change, even though i really do.
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oh dear. so drunk. Had a great time at pike tonite. thassal. oh. and my sisters love me. it is ENOUGH. dear, that word. -
merp
so i had a dream last night, about being in church, and how at this one chuch (i participated in chior there but never attended the sermons or congregations) i knew the passages to get to the stage front and the basement passages, and what doors went where really well, and there was a bathroom, and a guy who was supposed to be terrell, but who ( Read more... ) -
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i feel very alone. like, alone as in if i were to seriously tell someone i was thinking of committting suicide (not for reals people, just an example) i feel as if there would be no one who cared enough to sit with me and hold my hand and talk to me enough to change my mind. especially those people i care most about right now, who i might want to ( Read more... ) -
nice dream
i had a really good dream. but first, i must explain a couple of things, neither of which ive ever explained in full, at least here ( Read more... )
