it is so unbelievably fucking COLD right now. kinda cool, but kinda not really. esp. if you have to get up at 6:30 in the AM, which i do....bleh

what i am (at the moment ( Read more... )

Today (well i guess yesterday technically) was a very weird day. People that usually annoy me didn't annoy me but then later on not just one but two people who i like a lot annoyed the hell out of me. i'm not even real sure why. i just got annoyed all of a sudden and it was like, fuck this i need to just go home now. and other weird things. weird ( Read more... )

There is no good reason why i should be up this early ( Read more... )

Me, bitches!

=)

i just got an email from the USC ticket office regarding the lottery for the Stanford game, it began "We regret to inform you..." and i stopped reading after that. Fuckers. And way to make it seem like i just got rejected from a college or turned down for a job. Ouch. Fuckers.

Saw Eddie Izzard at the Coronet tonight, topping off a gloriously un-productive day. It was my second time seeing him live, he kicked ass as usual. The main difference between the last time i went to see him (in May) and this time was that we didn't get drunk at the bar next door to the theater and then get kicked out of said bar at ~2:30 in the AM ( Read more... )

Mourning the death of my tiny and fragile hopes. They were killed off earlier today, and the fact that the person who killed them did it in as tactful a way as possible doesn't change the fact that they are no more. Sometimes i wonder how i can have some areas of my life together and still be completely useless in this area. In my brain, it seems, ( Read more... )

Today i read about something called Learned Helplessness. It's a psychological condition that happens to animals & people when they experience a continuous lack of control over their environment. These circumstances lead an individual to 'perceive life choices as irrelevant'. Like when you've been in college for 4 1/2 years and you know that not ( Read more... )

i am so fucking un-motivated. In the last 4 days i have done exactly 1/2 of 1 assignment. Instead i went to the beach and to the movies (This Film Is Not Yet Rated-- very good) and watched texas get its ass kicked by Ohio State (Ha ha!). Some people might call that an unproductive weekend, i call it Having Fun Because I Just Can't Make Myself Care ( Read more... )