It's been awhile. The beginning of what looks to be a busy semester. Need to find a new and hopefully better-paying job. Still trying to keep it all together, am better at it some days than others. Glad to see SC friends and roommate again, although her and her boyfriend of 2 months are so happy and functional together that it makes me want to ( Read more... )

Trying to keep it together. 2 finals down and 2 more tomorrow. After that getting ready to go to El Paso on Thursday or Friday. Feeling like i got ripped off bigtime on this whole Christmas break thing, but not much that can be done now except go and make the best of it. Hoping it won't be too cold over there since i've gotten used to the 60 ( Read more... )

Killing time that i don't really have. You can usually tell how things are going with me by the frequency with which i update. When things are good i don't have the time or desire to write about every little thing that's going on. This was not a good week, thus the 3 updates in 8 days. The thing that had been keeping me sane the last few weeks was ( Read more... )

Today kinda sucks so far. People in hospitals, overwhelmed school-wise, frustrated money-wise/relationship-wise/life-wise etc. etc. Probably in a few hours i will be calmer and this will sound very dramatic and whiny, like most of these end up doing. But for now it's good to get it out. Wish i could talk to an actual person about figuring all this ( Read more... )

"Sorrow drips into your heart
through a pinhole
just like the faucet that leaks and
there is comfort in the sound
But while you debate half empty or half full
it slowly rises
your love is gonna drown

Your love is gonna drown."

-Death Cab for Cutie

----i love you----
------20 days-----

Two new addictions in one week: the first is the new shakes at Carl's Jr. i had a chocolate one at lunch the other day and it was probably the highlight of my week. Okay that makes me sound pretty sad, but it was. Practically "C in your P" good hehe. The other thing is Yahoo/Launch Online Radio. This thing is way cool, you pick groups/songs you ( Read more... )

Since i can't seem to explain how i feel lately, i'm stealing stuff from other peoples' rants and putting together my own random mix of craziness ( Read more... )

Sick of school lately, and trying to figure out this whole schedule/graduation thing. Waiting to hear if my petition to get this one class substituted gets approved. Kind of weird how this single stupid little thing could be a big determining factor in my future happiness. And the extra stress of it all is not needed or appreciated. Whatever. Had a ( Read more... )

^That's what my roommate said to me yesterday cause it was Thursday night and neither of us were doing anything. She's right. Not because you have to go out every Thursday (or even every weekend) in order to not be lame, but because there was no real reason for us not to be doing anything, we were just hanging out at the apt. bored. i know i ( Read more... )

Yes, best birthday ever. But over now, sadness. Went, visited, partied, didn't want to come back but did. Back to the sameness and the farawayness and the notknowingwhati'mdoingness. What are you supposed to do? Keep going because you're almost finished, even though you're not happy? Or say fuck it and start all over again, even though you're dying ( Read more... )