So, I'm back home from the UK and I am finally online. I was itching to get back in here to read the bloggs of other people and get inspired again ( Read more... )

I feel fat all the time but right now i feel overtly discustingly Fat. Fat in my body, Fat in my heart. I AM. I'm having one of those total hissy-fit Fat tantrums. If it was anything else that was the problem i might be able to fix it but i can't seem to fix this. Not instantly anyway ( Read more... )

I feel so sick after my binging. Why do I do this to myself? Honestly, I don’t know ( Read more... )

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After a 4 day binge session (where i was restricting really well until about 6pm when i was home alone and would just lose it, eating enough food to last 1 person about a week!) I have pulled myself back up out of that cycle and revisited some goals, made some calculations, lists and plans to accomplish these things ( Read more... )

FRIDAY 11 MAY - DAY 2 ( Read more... )

So, yesterday I think I did well. This morning the scales told me that I have lost 4lb over night. That’s awesome. I have to keep going. The next 4 days will be hard but I have to push through the pain for find the eventual reward - a state of thinness. I just always find the first 5 days the toughest to get through without eating anything, but ( Read more... )

1x diet soup 125cal
1x coffee 12cal
3x sticks of gum 15cal
Diet Supplements/appetite suppressants 0cal
1x diet coke 3cal
1x diet shake 125cal
+280cal

30min walk to work -139cal
Toning: legs and abs -126cal
30min cross-trainer -315cal
30min walk in the woods -100cal
-680cal

Total = -400cal

*Smiles*
I can do this.

Okay, so I haven’t posted for almost a month. Since my last post I have eaten my way through Greece and Turkey and returned 4lb heavier. I have tried and failed to get back onto my soup diet and I have avoided writing about it because it hurts so much. I have to get this eating and weight problem of mine sorted - Now ( Read more... )

I saw this documentary on TV the other night called Countdown to Zero. Dawn Potter who was a UK size 12 documented her efforts to shrink to an American size 0 (UK size 4). She got pretty damn close to it in the 2 months that she was on her starvation diet (a max of 500cal per day). She started out at 10st 7lb (149.8lb/68kg) and lost 1st 2lb (17lb/7 ( Read more... )