It looks as if I don’t do anything except this. maybe I don’t. Living in a house that isn’t owned by your parents combined with worryingly intrinsic domestic traits results in an eternal dilemma. To clean and rearrange or not to clean and rearrange. But then, introspectiveness comes in and says no. so I just write and read. I am going back to ( Read more... )

Oh, the house is just weird today, I just feel really weird. I think that last month the Levonelle did make a difference and kept whatever anvil of hormone it is that drags me down up elsewhere. However, I haven’t taken any. Funny to consider the regular doing of stupid things just as an excuse to take a hormone. Like randomly bedding someone on ( Read more... )

I’m not really feeling myself. Or, to be more accurate, I’m not really sure what that is. ‘feeling myself’, I mean. Today is the first that I spent without Tinu in a good while, and I’ve only just realised what a difference that makes ( Read more... )

You’re so new, and so are your ideas, your perspective. You’re getting me back into what I used to love, a reinstallation, and I love your smile. You want me around but I think you’re going further than you could ever realise.

we should just be friends though.

Theres something wrong in my lower back. Near the top of my pelvis, where the back dimples would be. I hope its a muscular thing. I hope its nothing to do with any of my reproductive organs. Its because I’m writing essay after essay on pregnancy and motherhood that I’m paranoid- it’s all I’ve been thinking about ( Read more... )

I feel really quite odd. Perhaps it’s a combination of having a lot of work to do, being unable to focus, and not really knowing where I stand on a lot of accounts. I’ve been spending a lot of time with Tinuke and she’s wonderful but part of me wonders how dependant I’m becoming on her company and generally whether this feeling of independence is ( Read more... )

I feel really quite odd. Perhaps it’s a combination of having a lot of work to do, being unable to focus, and not really knowing where I stand on a lot of accounts. I’ve been spending a lot of time with Tinuke and she’s wonderful but part of me wonders how dependant I’m becoming on her company and generally whether this feeling of independence is ( Read more... )

I’ve had some revelations when it comes to certain things ( Read more... )

feeling a lot better now although in complete denial of all the work i have to do. directing some of Eyes on Me for the royal court is hugely exciting, and me and tinu are casting on friday for it, then two weeks of rehearsals and then two performances.

i miss my london friends.

Alright, so hopefully this week will not be as bad as it has the potential to be. Although these are not the most pleasant of details, I was cleaning my ears last night and think I damaged something in my left ear to the point where. It. Fucking. Hurts to high heaven. I’m now up to the eyeballs in ibuprofen because my first instinct is ‘its trying ( Read more... )